Friday, July 13, 2012

Day 45 - And my heart is whole again

I could not have made it through these past 6 weeks without my friends and family.  You all have been here supporting me, with kind words, with advice, with cyber hugs and prayers and I wish I could explain just what it all has meant to me.

It is never easy to be away from your husband, not for a day, not for a week, not for a year and only when you've had to do it, do you really appreciate the little things.

Yes, the small things that we so often take for granted.

The hugs
Sharing a cup of coffee
Sharing a look of understanding of love
Sharing the problems, having him there to put his arm around you and say "it's ok, we'll be fine"
Hearing his voice daily
Getting a good morning kiss, getting a goodbye kiss, getting a *I'm home from work* kiss
Being able to reach over in the middle of the night and feeling him there next to you

All little things that we so often take for granted until we can't do them, and then the pain of missing that is at times unbearable.

I will tell you that I often felt like I wasn't breathing.  Like I was perpetually holding my breath, walking on egg shells, just getting by from one day to the other.  Goodness, it's exhausting.  When I say that everything seems to go wrong and everything seems to come at you at once, I'm not kidding.

But it's over now.

He got home late last night and the minute I laid eyes on him walking through the door, I literally exhaled and ran into his arms.  I am back to feeling whole, I'm back to feeling safe, I'm back to being able to hug him anytime I want to and I feel like I can do anything and face whatever with him by my side.

Now as much as I loved the daily photo posts, I won't be continuing with those.  Well, I should say not exactly, I won't be labeling them after today, but you can still count on many photos because it's who I am, I'm happy when I'm capturing every second of our lives for eternity.

For today, I'll still be finishing off with some photos :)

:::::     Hubby arrived shortly before midnight and my kids were beyond themselves with happiness.  Nicholas was exhausted and kept falling asleep but waking up and letting us know that he was getting the first hug LOL  Here he is by the kitchen door waiting, he had just heard dad pull up and get out of the car and I have to tell you the scream he let out when that door opened brought a lump to my throat.  He screamed out "daddddddyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy" and jumped into his arms.
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:::: first thing this morning, the kids gave daddy what they had bought him for Father's Day :)
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:::: They are so happy to have him home, they have these goofy smiles plastered on their faces since last night, it's so cute :)
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:::: we are both so relieved to have this behind us. We don't like being apart, we are just done with the separations and are both ready to start a new chapter of our lives, retiring somewhere and growing old together :)
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:::: heading to breakfast this morning, we've had rain for two days, it hasn't cooled down too much, but it's definitely made it humid
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:::: beautiful clouds have moved back and forth through the sky all day long
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:::: another view of the clouds this afternoon
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:::: I love these, my mother in law sent them through my husband, how cute are they? LOL
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:::: there was a game of ping pong going on in my kitchen, between kids and daddy
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:::: freaked me out, I was in the living room randomly yelling out "BE CAREFUL". And to show me that they wouldn't break anything, I was pelted with some balls LOL
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:::: take out pizza while sitting around the table laughing and catching up on the last 6 weeks
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:::: and last but not least, my other baby came home too last night, and boy did I miss it too :)
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MamaBoz said...

So happy for you all.....have an amazing weekend, I know ya will!

Mari said...

I just love this! :)
Happy for you.

NITA said...

Glad your together again : D

Tammy ~ Country Girl at Home ~ said...

So happy for you all, Sandra! Enjoy every minute! :)


Elise Martinez said...

That photo of your son waiting by the door is so precious. Glad that you and your husband are back together!

Just Us said...

Happy reunion time :) I have loved your daily photos and look forward to seeing them however you choose to put them up! Enjoy the next few days catching up together!

FlowerLady said...

Hurray ~ he made it home safely and you all look so wonderfully happy.

I hope you will soon be able to retire and spend the rest of your days together unseparated. Together you are whole.

Love and hugs ~ FlowerLady

Christy said...

A sweet reunion. I think we all felt it a little bit as we read. My eyes got a little wet. So happy for you and your kids that he is home. Makes me appreciated my wonderful husband a little more.

Wendi said...

I am so happy you are together again!

Creative Digital Expressions said...

Even though i have only just found your blog a few days ago... reading this i was in tears of joy because i know exactly how it felt when my son finally walked off that bus in Camp Lejune after six LONG month in the sandbox. Everyday becomes a blessing when they safe at home in your arms :) Soooooo HAPPY for you!

Tina Leigh said...

Ive never been away from my husband for that long, however, we have had jobs that kept us from seeing each other like normal folks. Its awful! Happy yall are back together but I will miss the daily posts so dont be a stranger.

In the last 45 days, I have taken care of my sick grandmother til her death, quit my full time job as a nurse, and obtained temporary custody(possibly full custody)of my 18 month old grandson.

Life can change in a blink, cant it!

Walking on Sunshine... said...

Very happy for you!