Wednesday, February 4, 2015

The big fight.....

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Hello everyone, I know you're probably a little shocked to see me here, or maybe even happy to finally see a post from me, after it seemed that I just disappeared into thin air.

The truth?

It's been.....well.....I want to say weird, because I don't really have another word to describe what my life has been like the past few weeks since finding out we're moving to Texas.

If I were to tell you that it seems like every single negative thing that is out there was thrown our way, it would be a bit of an understatement.  It really has been like that, and it's quite hard to stay positive and on track when you feel like you can't even breathe.

I have often gone through difficult moments in my life, knowing that it was a test, or a spiritual battle and right now we are smack dab in the middle of another one.

Let me start by saying that this move to Texas and my husband's new job, are life changing for us, in many ways and I think that is the catalyst for the fight we're up against.  As a Christian I know that anything that is good will be met with resistance by that which is bad, it just is the way things work.

So we're fighting and we are determined to get to Texas and to take this on.  It's not easy, I've had some breakdowns, my husband is starting to feel the stress and has at times questioned the whole move and job, but you know that is exactly what the enemy wants and I refuse to allow it.

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The rainy days???

Haven't exactly helped my mood, even though I have always loved rain, but yes, at this moment it is just exacerbating an already grey mood.

Yesterday was it, the defining moment where I finally faced this head on and said "Enough is Enough".  I am tired of being a punching bag to selfish rude self-centered people, I am tired of being pushed around and helping only to have it thrown back in my face.

There really is only so much a person can take before they put their foot down and I'm putting it down.

We WILL make this work, we WILL get my husband to Texas, we WILL get everything done here, we WILL be fine financially and we WILL win this battle.

We will, we will, and we will.

So, one of the things I need to do right now is to list all my crochet items that I am wanting to sell, and for the most part I already have pictures, but I am going to get everything together and put the post up this afternoon.  There will be dishcloths and blankets and some mandalas too.

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Something else we're working on is getting the kid's school finished before the end of May because I don't want to have to transfer them to Texas right at the end of the school year, would rather start the new year fresh.

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In the next two weeks, we have quite a few things to get done.....

  • Fix the brakes on my husband's truck because he needs to drive it to Texas
  • Probably replace a tire on my car, yesterday it went flat
  • Sell one of our sets of washer/dryer
  • Sell my crochet items
  • Pack husband's belongings and other items for him to take
  • Remove everything from storage

The rest will be up to me, and let me tell you moving companies are ridiculously priced.  I have been getting quotes of anything from $6800 to $10,000.   Goodness gracious, there is NO way that we can afford that.

This month we have no school money because hubby has to take the semester off from school to get settled into the new job and to move down to Texas.  It has hit us hard, very hard and it's been a juggling game of what bills to pay when and how much and if you pay one then you don't have groceries, and if you get groceries then you don't pay this bill.

I'm so ready to get to Texas, put my feet up and say "we're here and we're done".

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But guess what?

We're still here, we're alive, we're healthy and we are ready to take on this challenge.  Prayers would be appreciated though, very much so.

Yeah, that is what has been going on here and the reason why I've also been quite distant from my blog, it's been hard to really sit down and compile any kind of coherent post when my thoughts have been so muddled. 

I will be back to regular blogging, or rather I should say that I am back to regular blogging, because I've realized that I need this space to jot down my life, to keep track of my ideas and to help me make this move and this transition easier.  I've always done it with previous moves so I don't know why this time it would be any different.

Right, I need to get laundry started and I need to get my crochet items together.  I'll be back later with the Crochet post.

Again, thank you all for being so understanding and for continuing to comment and leave me such wonderful support even when I've been less than stellar at blogging or visiting you all.  It means the world, truly.

Blessings,
Sandra

28 comments:

Beca said...

I've had moves like that before. Hang in there. It will get better. I just moved here to New Mexico from Texas 8 months ago and I felt the same way. It was the hardest move ever. But it's not so bad now. We're still getting settled and we're doing ok. Just remember there are brighter days ahead. Stay strong!
xx Beca

Penny (A Penny For Your Thoughts) said...

I will be praying for you and your family. Spiritual battles are difficult but so awesome when God's plan is revealed. I can't wait to see the items post :)

Faith said...

Your husband has a job & an offer? You're miles ahead of us. Be thankful. God directed you to Texas, it will all work out. We are waiting for that one phone call away from a full time job and benefits for our family. It seems daunting to move, and pack and what not, but soon you'll be settled in and have a regular paycheck again. He has directed your path and has lighted your path, he will work it to good, just as I know he will for us.

Angel Jem said...

Oh wow! What a lot is facing you! But you seem set up to succeed and I wish you much luck and all the support God can give to get there!

Michelle makes and bakes said...

My word you have alot on your plate, but you will get there, and things will start to get easier, remember to take care of yourselves and rest when you can. Look forward to hearing from you again when you canxx

Carrie B. said...

That's right you wonderful strong amazing Christian Woman! Show that enemy where it's at!!

I'm keeping the prayers a flowing and I know the sun will come out soon with your determination and incredible attitude. Keep up the good fight and know you're not alone in your corner.

xoxo

Michelle-ozark crafter said...

I would say that with so much resistance, this must be a good thing so hang in there sweetie.

Mrs. Pedersen said...

I hope that things go much smoother for you here on out! Moving is stressful in and of itself, but to tack on other issues? Sending prayers of peace your way!

Pamela said...

I know it seems you have the weight of the world on your shoulders (both of you) right now but you will triumph over it all. Covering you with prayer for the days ahead.

Carol said...

As others have said, this will all work out! Vent on your blog - you know we're all here for support.

Anonymous said...

Praying that the move is smooth from here on out and that you all settle in quickly.

Sweet Tea said...

I hear ya! Moving from one state to another is such BIG work!! So many details and obstacles when you're trying to work within a budget. Remember to breathe.

FlowerLady Lorraine said...

Dear Sandra ~ I was so relieved that the fight was not between you and and your husband. The title had me worried.

You all are in my thoughts and prayers. God will work all things out, just keep trusting in Him and asking Him for strength.

Love & hugs ~ FlowerLady

Tamy Bollar said...

BIG HUGS and bigger prayers! YOU WILL CONQUER this!

When we left Texas for Michigan the moving price was HUGE like that so I started paring down. The move from Michigan to Oregon was better priced because of that, but honestly I would pare down to the bare bones if we had to do it again. The frustration and time spent packing things that could be easily replaced was ridiculous. I sat down and calculated after that first move and the cost of the things that were lost or broken in the move, my time and the relatively small cost to replace other things far outweighed the mover's cost the next time around.

When I was younger I always wondered why people back east sold their houses with everything in it, something I'd never seen on the west coast. But I think this is why!

~Carla~ said...

I understand 100%. ((Hugs & Prayers))

Elizabeth said...

Thank you for keeping us up to date on your life journey. I have ALWAYS loved your blog! You are often in my thoughts...my family made a huge move 5 years ago from Arizona to Mississippi and though it took a lot of courage, we got through it! You will, too, because you are a courageous wife and mother with an awesome outlook on life!
Hugs.

Susanne said...

Hang in there Sandra! Praying that all those things you need money for will be provided. Sometimes the stepping out in faith is the hardest thing when all you see are the numbers.

Connie said...

I have been married for 56 years and have never moved. We have always lived in the country about 2 miles from where I grew up. I won't know what to do if we were moving and yet I think would be fun or at least, a challenge. Hang in there, you can do it.

Amy at love made my home said...

I am sorry that you are meeting with such difficulties. If this is the right thing for you and your family to be doing, you know that is the case, so others should accept that too. It is hard for some people to accept change though, but it isn't fair to take it out on you. I hope that all will be good very soon and that you will be on your way to your new home. xx

Kristina said...

Sorry to hear all the things your are dealing with. It is tough, but for reason we make it through, right? We've been in a whirlwind of stress here lately, and sometimes I wonder if I can take one more thing. Sending prayers.

HuNnY aNd PoPpA LeWiS said...

Praying for peace and blessings for your family Sandra. May this move come together and your trip to Texas be a safe one. Hang in there! (And I live with an hour of SAFB, isn't that a coincidence?)

TheFishie said...

You'll make it as you always do. I'm thinking you might actually enjoy the flexibility you'll get with a move that's all on your own. I've done two military moves (1 overseas), about five or six with private movers, and a couple back in college with friends and rental trucks. All have their own challenges but with private movers, they're accountable to YOU because they will be paid by you. This gives you more control of their actions, confidence in telling them exactly what you want and, in my experience, the private movers are generally more efficient. It will all come together. Best of luck!

A said...

My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family. Prayers for peace and HIS will to be done.

Jill said...

My heart goes out to you in this struggle as I recently went through this and I'm trying to adjust yet again... 9 moves with my husband all job related. It's tough starting over all the time. I will be keeping your family in prayer and if you need to vent I'm here :-)

Many blessings,
Jill

skmanning said...

Oh honey, moving is so hard. I've done it quite a few times. I want to tell you that I live in Plano, TX. You didn't say where you were going. But if you are headed to the DFW area, I would love to be of help to you. I've homeschooled, have a fabulous realtor I could refer you to. So if I can be of help to you, please contact me.

Christy said...

We totally understand, and will be here waiting for you. If it's any consolation, I love when you take us along on your moving adventures. I will be praying for you and your family. Much love.

Christy said...

We totally understand, and will be here waiting for you. If it's any consolation, I love when you take us along on your moving adventures. I will be praying for you and your family. Much love.

Liz said...

Hang in there Sandra. I know this is stressful and difficult, but please know that there are brighter days in your future. You are an amazing woman and I have complete faith that you guys will come out of this on the other side even stronger. Remember when things seem tough, that God is with you, and you have lots of people wanting to help and praying for you along the way. Sending hugs and prayers.