It's in the mundane tasks....6:30 AM
The simple moments.
When you're standing at the kitchen counter, in your robe, in the early morning hours, making a cup of coffee and a slice of toast.
When you're washing the dishes by hand and mindlessly standing while the warm water pours over your hands.
Or when you're folding laundry, the mountains and mountains of never ending laundry.
It's in those moments that I find myself realizing that everything that seems like an insurmountable object in my path, means absolutely nothing when you're in the Lord's grace.
The worries, the fears, the feelings of not being in control, or the overwhelming sense of being on a roller coaster with no end. Those feelings, every.single.one.of.them mean nothing but what we make of it.
I'm not saying that problems don't exist, or that there is no fear and worry or pain. Of course all of those are legitimate feelings, but it's what we do with them that can either push us through the day to keep fighting, or hold us stuck in place in sheer panic.
So as I go about my days lately, I focus on the mundane tasks at hand, and anytime my mind starts drifting into a problem that I've handed over to God, I immediately push it out of my mind.
It's not always easy, oh my goodness, it's actually almost impossible at times to let your mind go right back to old bad habits. But, I'm making an effort to push through and push them away and it's been working miracles in my well being, mentally and physically.
As I type this up, a huge thunderstorm is brewing outside. The thunder is loud, the raindrops are heavy and it reminds me of my soul when I let problems get the better of me.
I choose to believe that the drowning sound of the rain on the roof, is almost like God hammering away all my worries and fears, all the negativity surrounding me and my family. And boy does it feel good to think that way.
I've been struggling, you all know that, but I also know that you've all been praying for me and my family and I can't tell you how much that means to me and how thankful I am. I haven't seen huge changes or resolutions to some of the issues, but I have noticed some signs here and there that God is working on my life, and I'll take it.
No matter how small the change may be, I will gladly take it and accept it and smile through it.
As I work through this not so good phase in my life, I'm turning to those things that always make me feel better. I'm reading again, I'm crocheting, I'm homemaking and I'm decorating and crafting and blog posting.
I'm not going to make any promises because life is crazy at times, and school IS starting next week, but I really do want to continue staying focused on these things, because after all they are what brings me the most joy.
Being a homemaker!!!!