The big fight.....

Hello everyone, I know you're probably a little shocked to see me here, or maybe even happy to finally see a post from me, after it seemed that I just disappeared into thin air.

The truth?

It's been.....well.....I want to say weird, because I don't really have another word to describe what my life has been like the past few weeks since finding out we're moving to Texas.

If I were to tell you that it seems like every single negative thing that is out there was thrown our way, it would be a bit of an understatement.  It really has been like that, and it's quite hard to stay positive and on track when you feel like you can't even breathe.

I have often gone through difficult moments in my life, knowing that it was a test, or a spiritual battle and right now we are smack dab in the middle of another one.

Let me start by saying that this move to Texas and my husband's new job, are life changing for us, in many ways and I think that is the catalyst for the fight we're up against.  As a Christian I know that anything that is good will be met with resistance by that which is bad, it just is the way things work.

So we're fighting and we are determined to get to Texas and to take this on.  It's not easy, I've had some breakdowns, my husband is starting to feel the stress and has at times questioned the whole move and job, but you know that is exactly what the enemy wants and I refuse to allow it.

The rainy days???

Haven't exactly helped my mood, even though I have always loved rain, but yes, at this moment it is just exacerbating an already grey mood.

Yesterday was it, the defining moment where I finally faced this head on and said "Enough is Enough".  I am tired of being a punching bag to selfish rude self-centered people, I am tired of being pushed around and helping only to have it thrown back in my face.

There really is only so much a person can take before they put their foot down and I'm putting it down.

We WILL make this work, we WILL get my husband to Texas, we WILL get everything done here, we WILL be fine financially and we WILL win this battle.

We will, we will, and we will.

So, one of the things I need to do right now is to list all my crochet items that I am wanting to sell, and for the most part I already have pictures, but I am going to get everything together and put the post up this afternoon.  There will be dishcloths and blankets and some mandalas too.

Something else we're working on is getting the kid's school finished before the end of May because I don't want to have to transfer them to Texas right at the end of the school year, would rather start the new year fresh.

In the next two weeks, we have quite a few things to get done.....

• Fix the brakes on my husband's truck because he needs to drive it to Texas
• Probably replace a tire on my car, yesterday it went flat
• Sell one of our sets of washer/dryer
• Sell my crochet items
• Pack husband's belongings and other items for him to take
• Remove everything from storage

The rest will be up to me, and let me tell you moving companies are ridiculously priced.  I have been getting quotes of anything from $6800 to $10,000.   Goodness gracious, there is NO way that we can afford that.

This month we have no school money because hubby has to take the semester off from school to get settled into the new job and to move down to Texas.  It has hit us hard, very hard and it's been a juggling game of what bills to pay when and how much and if you pay one then you don't have groceries, and if you get groceries then you don't pay this bill.

I'm so ready to get to Texas, put my feet up and say "we're here and we're done".

But guess what?

We're still here, we're alive, we're healthy and we are ready to take on this challenge.  Prayers would be appreciated though, very much so.

Yeah, that is what has been going on here and the reason why I've also been quite distant from my blog, it's been hard to really sit down and compile any kind of coherent post when my thoughts have been so muddled. 

I will be back to regular blogging, or rather I should say that I am back to regular blogging, because I've realized that I need this space to jot down my life, to keep track of my ideas and to help me make this move and this transition easier.  I've always done it with previous moves so I don't know why this time it would be any different.

Right, I need to get laundry started and I need to get my crochet items together.  I'll be back later with the Crochet post.

Again, thank you all for being so understanding and for continuing to comment and leave me such wonderful support even when I've been less than stellar at blogging or visiting you all.  It means the world, truly.

Blessings,
Sandra