The treasure I have to share with you all today, is actually a book. Yes a lot of us love books and have tons of them and for the most part we consider them treasures, but this book helped me through a really tough time in my life.
It was June 2001 and I had just been told by the doctors that I was having a second miscarriage. I remember sitting there looking at the little screen, while the doctors pointed out that the sac was drooped on one side and that there was no viable pregnancy. I was 8 and a half weeks pregnant and it hit me like a bomb.
How could this happen??? Just two months before I had my first miscarriage, and now it was happening again. I had so many questions, and other than the doctors with their medical explanations, no one seemed to understand what I was going through.
After a week or two, I got a phone call from the doctor. They wanted me to come in for a D&C, I was terrified but I went and got it done. Another week or two and I got another call, the cells that were removed during the D&C were NOT from the baby, so it might be a tubal pregnancy. I was now told to go in for an ultrasound to try to find the baby, I remember trying to joke with the technician and asking him if I had an 8 week old baby just floating around in there, since they were having such a hard time finding it. Nothing....no baby!!! Next step, Methotraxate, a dose of chemotherapy.
After going through all the medical procedures, I felt numb and alone. This is where my treasure comes in.....I was sitting at the computer and clicked on something, not even sure anymore, and up came this book called I'll Hold you in Heaven. I read the book that first day I got it and pretty much kept it with me constantly. It was the ONE thing that got me through the really bad times and the questions which no one seemed to be able to answer.
It not only gave me the answers to some questions I had, but it followed it up with scriptures, which brought me so much comfort. To this day, when I have my bad days (because I still do from time to time), I look to this book to help me get through them...it's never failed me!!!
And there you have it, my treasure for this tuesday. Are you sharing one of your treasures too??? If so, then head on over to Faith at Faithful Mommy and play along by adding your name to the list.
It was June 2001 and I had just been told by the doctors that I was having a second miscarriage. I remember sitting there looking at the little screen, while the doctors pointed out that the sac was drooped on one side and that there was no viable pregnancy. I was 8 and a half weeks pregnant and it hit me like a bomb.
How could this happen??? Just two months before I had my first miscarriage, and now it was happening again. I had so many questions, and other than the doctors with their medical explanations, no one seemed to understand what I was going through.
After a week or two, I got a phone call from the doctor. They wanted me to come in for a D&C, I was terrified but I went and got it done. Another week or two and I got another call, the cells that were removed during the D&C were NOT from the baby, so it might be a tubal pregnancy. I was now told to go in for an ultrasound to try to find the baby, I remember trying to joke with the technician and asking him if I had an 8 week old baby just floating around in there, since they were having such a hard time finding it. Nothing....no baby!!! Next step, Methotraxate, a dose of chemotherapy.
After going through all the medical procedures, I felt numb and alone. This is where my treasure comes in.....I was sitting at the computer and clicked on something, not even sure anymore, and up came this book called I'll Hold you in Heaven. I read the book that first day I got it and pretty much kept it with me constantly. It was the ONE thing that got me through the really bad times and the questions which no one seemed to be able to answer.
It not only gave me the answers to some questions I had, but it followed it up with scriptures, which brought me so much comfort. To this day, when I have my bad days (because I still do from time to time), I look to this book to help me get through them...it's never failed me!!!
And there you have it, my treasure for this tuesday. Are you sharing one of your treasures too??? If so, then head on over to Faith at Faithful Mommy and play along by adding your name to the list.
I can see why this book would be a treasure for you - there in your time of need. And I'm sorry for your losses too.
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Sounds like a great book! I've gone through a miscarriage and ectopic as well (about 7 yrs ago)...it can be tough! I'll have to check this book out...thanks!
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing. I will definately check this book out!
ReplyDeleteI can see why this is such a treasure to you. What a beautiful thing!
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I'm so sorry that you had such a sad time, but thank goodness for such a wonderful book. I'm glad that it was there for you!
ReplyDeleteI was very touched by your "Treasure". I myself have had mulitple miscarriages and I don't think that anyone else understands the pain of not being able to hold that child you wanted and saw on the ultrasound. I will pick up this book and pray that it heals my heart like it has yours.
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