It is 7:16 PM and the sun is almost completely set. That's Fall right there, waving excitedly and letting us know that they have arrived safe and sound.
The days have started slowing down, the mornings have began to feel cold, and our trees are changing color. There is no going back to summer now, although, Texas is trying to hold on to warm temperatures still, but within the next few days that will be a thing of the past.
We are slowly trying to get back into our normal routine. Honestly, we haven't been ourselves, or following our usual schedules, since the end of May. I won't say that I am a stickler for routines, but our lives have been so up in the air and tossed back and forth, that we are craving some familiarity at this point.
And so I am picking up the camera more, cooking more, baking, pottering around the house, crocheting, reading, and trying to watch period dramas that I so love. It all feels a bit out of place right now.
The sweet familiarity of our old routine, but intermixed with the feeling of it all being brand new. Life, whether we want to admit it or not, has changed, and now it's a matter of learning to live with this new normal.
How are we otherwise?
The kids are ok. I have my days, and my husband is not really talking about it. He is not ready to deal with the loss of his mom. So he sets it aside, deep within him and doesn't go there.
Grief is a strange thing isn't it? We all at some time in our lives, experience it, but we don't all deal with it the same way.
So, he knows that I'm here, and he has told me that when he is ready to talk about it, he will come to me. Until then, I am letting him get through this however he needs to.
I've loaded up on books, some are for review s they were sent by the publishers, one was sent by my brother in South Africa, and others I picked up at my local Christian store. I tend to do a lot more reading in the cold weather seasons than in the summer.
In that pile, aside from my Study Bible, are the books I picked up at the store, as well as the book my brother gave me which is Trump's Pro Christian Accomplishments:
A divine revelation of Heaven and Hell by Mary K. Baxter
Trump's Pro Christian Accomplishments by Steve Cioccolanti
A Prairie Girl's Faith: The Spiritual Legacy of Laura Ingalls Wilder by Stephen W. Hines
Lazarus Awakening: Finding your place in the heart of God by Joanna Weaver
Heaven: Your real home....from a higher perspective by Joni Eareckson Tada
90 Minutes in Heaven: A true story of death and life by Don Piper
The Refuge by Ann H. Gabhart
Tomorrow I will share with you the books I have received for review. Have quite a few really good ones on the shelf as well. Now where to find time to read them all? Isn't that a good problem to have though?
I am also getting back into full time cooking, which means quite a few new recipes to try and share with you. This one is so simple, only has 3 ingredients and was delicious. It will be up on the food blog tomorrow, along with tonight's dinner which was also a new recipe I tried.
I also still need to show you my fall/winter garden, so need to grab the camera and get out in the veggie area.
I hope you are all doing well. I miss visiting your blogs and catching up. I haven't even had time to visit the Happy Homemaker Monday participants. Blimey.
Anyway, I am going to end this one here, brush my teeth and get into my warm comfy bed. Have a wonderful night friends, I'll see you all tomorrow.
Grief is difficult and we all have to work through it at our own pace. I cried so much when my husband passed but kind of just steamrolled through, as my daughter was leaving in a few months to start working on her masters degree, and we had to fly out to Kalamazoo Michigan to find her an apartment, then fly home and keep everything going. It was probably 6 months before I worked through the worst of my grief. All you can do is what you’re doing Sandra. God bless you all.
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