Monday, September 28, 2015

Happy Homemaker Monday - 09/28/2015

Good morning everyone.  Hope you all had a wonderful weekend.

I would like to apologize for my lack of posts the past few days, but things are just not easy for me right now.  I think I've cried more the past week than in the past months or year.  The uncertainty is overwhelming and I'm struggling, a lot.  My blogging will be a bit sporadic for the moment, and I hope you can understand.

The weather outside is::::
Hot still.  We did have some rain on Friday evening leading up to Saturday morning, and last week woke up to some fog too, but for the most part I don't think this part of Texas is ready to welcome Fall yet. 

On the breakfast plate this morning::::
Cup of coffee right now, and I did have a Strawberry Dunkin Donut.  I've been eating a lot of crap the past few days and I'm starting to feel it, so after this donut, it's back to water and watching what I eat. 

As I look outside my window:::
It's pitch black outside, I think living in the country and not having all the light pollution around, it seems that it remains dark for much longer than anywhere else I've lived.

Right now I am::::
Sitting in my living room, typing up this post and talking to my dad about my grandma. 

As I look around the house::::
I need to clean the bathrooms today, from top to bottom, it's one of the rooms in the house that I hate doing and sometimes gets neglected.  There I've said, I'm not super woman, go figure.

On today's to do list::::
Laundry....Put away all the clean laundry that I washed and folded yesterday.  Do one last load of whites and then I'm caught up.
Cleaning....Usual housework
Schooling.....Help Jasmine with her History portfolio.

On my mind::::
My grandmother.  She is still on the ventilator but it's been 7 days so they're actually doing a tracheotomy.  When they lower the adrenaline, her blood pressure drops down to almost nothing and her lungs do not function on their own.  We are starting to have to face some very tough decisions and I'm not sure I am ready for any of this.  Please continue to pray for us, at this point I would be ok with my gran passing away peacefully in her sleep, I just can't imagine her suffering  or being hooked up to all sorts of tubes and machines to live, and then I feel absolutely awful for even thinking about it. 

On the TV today::::
I've been binge watching Lockup and Lockup Raw.
Downton Abbey's second episode from yesterday
Home Fires

On the menu this week::::
Monday - Copycat Panda Express Sweet Fire Chicken and Chow Mein
Tuesday - Lemon Basil Chicken, Roast Potatoes
Wednesday - Penne and Sausage Casserole
Thursday - Beef baked with Yogurt and black pepper, rice
Friday - Pan Bagnat
Saturday - Chicken Spaghetti Casserole
Sunday - Best Chili Ever

What I am creating at the moment::::
Still working on my Fall crochet scarf, it's coming along nicely.

New recipe I tried or want to try this week::::
The copycat Panda Express Sweet Fire Chicken is new and so is the Chow Mein, so I'll share those with you either tonight or tomorrow.

Favorite photo from the camera::::

Prayers, Inspirational Quotes or Devotionals::::
For the Lord's will to be done concerning my grandmother.
For me and the rest of the family, for strength and courage to hold on and get through this difficult moment, but most of all to make the right decisions keeping HER in mind and not be selfish about wanting her to stay around.


Dirt Road Primitives said...

Oh Sandra my heart is heavy for you.......many prayers for some peace.....


Elizabeth said...

I have been reading (and enjoying!) your blog for about two years now. I'm not sure why I keep reading--a combination of your heart and your lifestyle that is so different from my own (I have two young kids, work outside the home, no homeschooling, etc.) is so beautiful to me. My Nan passed away last September and i know how hard it is. She too lived a long life (91), but I've realized that doesn't necessarily make anything easier. Letting go is hard. And I think it's supposed to be. Rest assured I said a prayer for you this morning. God is an ever present comforter, and I pray his comfort will be known to you and yours during this difficult season of life.

Wendi said...

Oh Sandra, I am so sorry. I have been there I know that it is really hard. As much we wanted Grandma to stay here, for us, we knew that she needed to go so she could be released from her pain and suffering. No need to feel guilt for wanting the best for the one you love. Praying for you!

FlowerLady Lorraine said...

Dear Sandra ~ My heart aches for you. I know how hard it is to lose someone you love. It's not easy.

Love, hugs and prayers ~ FlowerLady

Joanna Unbehaun said...

Oh, Sandra.
I am so sorry. My prayers are with you and your family. Praying for His will to be done.

Heather said...

So sorry. Prayers for peace!

collettakay said...

So sorry for the hard time you are going through. Prayers!

Jill said...

Praying for your grandmother and all of your family, I know how hard this is. Big hugs!!


Lulu said...

praying for you all.

Tamy Bollar said...

Keeping you all in my prayers as you traverse this journey with your grandmother. So sorry for all the stress and difficulty this is putting your family through. HUGS

Stacey Schneller said...

So sorry about your grandma. Praying for you and your family.

Carrie B. said...

Please know you're not alone in your pain - feeling for you so much right now Sandra...and empathize all too well. Sending many prayers for peace and comfort for your family, as you make these difficult decisions.
Lean on your faith, my sweet Friend, and remember the beautiful journey your Grandma will face next and that you will see her again. I pray that brings comfort too.
Blessings. xoxo

Simple Joys said...

Oh Sandra, I'm so sorry to hear about your grandma. My thoughts are with you and your family at this difficult time.

Renee said...

Being at a distance from your loved ones can be challenging at times like this. Praying for you all and your Grandmother. Hang in there!