I would like to apologize for my lack of posts the past few days, but things are just not easy for me right now. I think I've cried more the past week than in the past months or year. The uncertainty is overwhelming and I'm struggling, a lot. My blogging will be a bit sporadic for the moment, and I hope you can understand.
The weather outside is::::Hot still. We did have some rain on Friday evening leading up to Saturday morning, and last week woke up to some fog too, but for the most part I don't think this part of Texas is ready to welcome Fall yet.
On the breakfast plate this morning::::Cup of coffee right now, and I did have a Strawberry Dunkin Donut. I've been eating a lot of crap the past few days and I'm starting to feel it, so after this donut, it's back to water and watching what I eat.
As I look outside my window:::It's pitch black outside, I think living in the country and not having all the light pollution around, it seems that it remains dark for much longer than anywhere else I've lived.
Right now I am::::Sitting in my living room, typing up this post and talking to my dad about my grandma.
As I look around the house::::I need to clean the bathrooms today, from top to bottom, it's one of the rooms in the house that I hate doing and sometimes gets neglected. There I've said, I'm not super woman, go figure.
On today's to do list::::Laundry....Put away all the clean laundry that I washed and folded yesterday. Do one last load of whites and then I'm caught up.
Schooling.....Help Jasmine with her History portfolio.
On my mind::::My grandmother. She is still on the ventilator but it's been 7 days so they're actually doing a tracheotomy. When they lower the adrenaline, her blood pressure drops down to almost nothing and her lungs do not function on their own. We are starting to have to face some very tough decisions and I'm not sure I am ready for any of this. Please continue to pray for us, at this point I would be ok with my gran passing away peacefully in her sleep, I just can't imagine her suffering or being hooked up to all sorts of tubes and machines to live, and then I feel absolutely awful for even thinking about it.
On the TV today::::I've been binge watching Lockup and Lockup Raw.
Downton Abbey's second episode from yesterday
On the menu this week::::Monday - Copycat Panda Express Sweet Fire Chicken and Chow Mein
Tuesday - Lemon Basil Chicken, Roast Potatoes
Wednesday - Penne and Sausage Casserole
Thursday - Beef baked with Yogurt and black pepper, rice
Friday - Pan Bagnat
Saturday - Chicken Spaghetti Casserole
Sunday - Best Chili Ever
What I am creating at the moment::::Still working on my Fall crochet scarf, it's coming along nicely.
New recipe I tried or want to try this week::::The copycat Panda Express Sweet Fire Chicken is new and so is the Chow Mein, so I'll share those with you either tonight or tomorrow.
Favorite photo from the camera::::
Prayers, Inspirational Quotes or Devotionals::::For the Lord's will to be done concerning my grandmother.
For me and the rest of the family, for strength and courage to hold on and get through this difficult moment, but most of all to make the right decisions keeping HER in mind and not be selfish about wanting her to stay around.