It is Sunday morning, barely, like 4 minutes to go until noon. But, I wanted to come in and sit and just chat a little. I wish I had ton to update you on, a really cool fun reason why I have reverted back to just one post a week, my Happy Homemaker Monday. Alas, there is no such thing, there is just life happening and a blogger (me), who apparently really sucks at this now.
I keep telling myself it's just a phase, but honestly how long does a phase need to last before you realize that maybe you are just not who you used to be, and things have changed?
I often say I miss my old blogging self, and I really do, like really really do.
The other morning I went to visit all the Happy Homemaker Monday participants, read their posts, left comments and realized just how much I miss that interaction, and how terrible I've been at doing it. It was that yearning for something long gone that you can't get back. Frustrated, I logged off the computer and went about my day.
Then I came back to the blog looking for something, I can't even tell you what because my pre-menopause almost 52 year old brain is so bad at remembering anything lately. Anyone else feel like this? My doctor says it's normal, I think it's ridiculous, we already have to go through so much change in our bodies at this time of our lives, can we at least leave our brains alone?
Anyway, I was looking through the blog and landed in 2016 and 2017. I miss that Sandra, that blogger that shared every day, the little things, the small things, the yard, the plants, the meals, the crochet blankets, what I was reading or watching, just my life in general. You would think that I stopped living the way I have stopped doing that, but no, life is the same for the most part, I have just stopped sharing. Why? I have no idea and if one of you does, let me know.
We have been enjoying quite a bit of rain lately, matter of fact leaving gym this morning we got caught in a crazy storm that seemed to have come out of nowhere. It was so strong and dropped so much water that driving down the road sent water flying up next to the windows, it was like a waterfall and we were standing behind the wall of water.
So, this weekend has been quiet, just done the bare minimum required of me, which I needed because weekends are so busy for us.
I am about to head to Walmart to pick up some cat food and some naan bread for tonight's curry, because I'm feeling lazy and don't want to make my own naan even though it's so easy to make. But anyway, after Walmart I plan on giving the house a quick vacuum and dusting and then relaxing until dinner time.
Oh I also got my mammogram done on Friday, and they have now changed the law here in Texas where we have to wait a full week for the results. Ask a person with health anxiety if that is ok LOL For pete sakes, I wanted the result the same day so I could move on, instead I am sitting here just waiting, wondering, letting my mind do it's usual panic. Have I told you before that I am so good with everything else, except waiting for doctor reports and results?
All the trust in God, knowing everything is fine and that I am healed by Jesus' stripes, goes flying out the window and the doom and gloom and negative thoughts take over. It's frustrating and something I have dealt with for so many years, I'm tired folks, I'm actually exhausted of feeling this way, but I know only God can help me conquer this. Pray for me please, that I learn to sit in His presence and not allow my mind to be taken over with worry, anxiety, fear and doubt.
Anyway, I will see you all back tomorrow morning for our Happy Homemaker Monday!
Have a blessed rest of Sunday,
xoxoxo
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