We received some unexpected news this afternoon.
The owners of the home we're renting, have decided to move back to the area and want to move back into their house when our rent agreement is up in June.
Very unexpected news considering they weren't planning on returning for a while.
It threw us for another loop, but then our lives the past 6 months seem to be up in the air and a jumble of questions and decisions.
My first reaction was to have a mini panic attack. After all, we JUST moved into this house 6 months ago and moving so soon again was completely out of our minds. Our minds, not God's, but ours.
See we seem to keep forgetting that everything is done in His timing and according to His will....and this house? This neighborhood, this area? Apparently not in His plans.
I could very well take this little wrench and freak out, wonder why or how or where we'll go from here, but my husband and I have long stopped pushing and pulling and trying to force things to happen our way. It never ends well and only makes things harder for everyone involved.
When faced with something like this, it's quite easy to see only the bad in the situation.
- Just moved here, have to pick everything up and move again.
- Hubby still hasn't found a job.
- We are still transitioning from active duty military to retirement life and it's not easy at all.
- Won't be able to buy house for another year or so and will continue having to rent.
Or, I can look at it in another way.
- Will be able to house hunt and find the perfect rental place for us.
- Will take the next year to get better acquainted with the area, hubby will get a job, will pay off my car and make buying a home that much easier.
While I like the house we live in, there are so many things wrong with it and so many things I would love to change. The small kitchen for one, no pantry, unfinished floors downstairs, not being allowed to garden, and many other issues, certainly not worth the monthly rent we are currently paying.
The prospect of finding a nicer home with a much cheaper rent is very appealing, and honestly this is just one more step to our dream home.
Do I wish I could be moving out of this house and into my own place? Absolutely!
Do I yearn to set down roots and begin the new chapter in our lives right now? Absolutely!
But again, not my timing. I don't need to understand why things are happening the way they are, all I need to do is continue trusting in the Lord and the knowledge that He is working on our behalf, finding the perfect home, opening the right doors, placing the right employment for my husband.
It's all there, right there for the taking, and maybe we're not meant to see it quite yet, because truth be told by the time we do get there, we will be that much more appreciative.
One thing I will miss about this house are the views, the nature, the animals and the fresh air. That is one thing that I will look for in our new home, wherever that may be.
So onward and forward, always with our heads held high.
Oh I'm sure I'll stumble and fall and cry and stomp my feet during the next few months, but it will be temporary and short lived because it solves nothing, other than ruining my make up and giving me red puffy eyes.
And just the thought of a new home with a nice big kitchen to get me excited about cooking again, is incentive enough to get my butt back in gear and push for what will hopefully be one of our last moves. Let's hope!!!