in the quiet night, just me and the computer. It feels.....ummm...weird?!?!? Yeah weird, I don't really ever get quiet time, and when I do I guess I'm at the point in my life where I don't know what to do with myself.
Isn't it fascinating how things change and how the years make you look at things differently?
Curt still makes fun of me because he remembers (much to my chagrin lol) that I always used to complain about being bored and couldn't wait to have kids so they could keep me company....and then the past few years I'm always complaining and whining that "there's so much noise and chaos around me, I just want some peace and quiet".....see the contradiction right there???
That's the story of my life!!
Anyway, come in and sit with me, we really haven't had a chance to chat and catch up in a while, and I KNOW I've been a horrible friend lately, I haven't answered my phone, or replied to emails, but really, and I'm not trying to make excuses, it's just that life has sort of slapped me upside the head and made me feel like I'm on an endless roller coaster ride. The ones that make you want to scream and smile one minute and then want to puke the next. That's the kind I'm on. It hasn't been easy being sick or having someone in the family sick, and then dealing with the added stresses.
Just so you all know exactly what the deal is right now:
- Mom in law fighting breast cancer
- Dad with 2 clogged arteries and having to do angioplasty
- Curt studying for his next stripe - Tech Sergeant (THE hardest by far to get)
- Moving or not moving - waiting for housing to call and say MOVE NOW, and then we do
- Being sick
- Deciding where to go from here - hubby retires in 5 years and since he's been in so long he gets to decide where he wants to go
- Deciding whether to just go ahead and buy a house off base or move into one on base for 6 months and then MOVE yet again
It's just been really crazy lately, there seem to be so many decisions and issues and I am feeling overwhelmed to the point where I just want mommy and daddy to come and take care of everything and let me be. Just let me be without responsibilities. Am I even allowed to feel that way anymore??? I don't think I am, I mean, the minute I got married and started a family that pretty much went out the window....but it's nice to dream about it sometimes. LOL
So this weekend we are getting our christmas decorations out and getting it all up and ready. Then the shopping begins shortly after that, even though I say that I prefer waiting until the last minute, I'm just crazy like that. But I do like to at least have an idea of what I am going to buy for each person. I don't want to overdo it, because it seems that we get so caught up in it all and spend way too much on the kids especially. Come on, do they really need all those new toys???
It wouldn't really be a problem if we got rid of the ones they don't play with anymore, but we don't. They just sit here waiting for the new buddies to arrive, at times I feel like my house swallowed a huge toy store and then regurgitated it all over. I know that sounds nasty, but it's how I feel...and since I'm all for being honest LOL
By the way, don't forget about my Slow Cooking Thursday tomorrow, I didn't put one up last week with it being Thanksgiving and all, but I think we are safe to do it this week, right?? Unless there's some other holiday that I'm not aware of.
It's been freezing here this week, snow and ice and temperatures in the teens. It's just really cold, and you know what's funny is that every year I do the same thing. I feel the cold and start thinking "this is way too cold I can't do this, there's no way that I'm going to make it through this winter".....LOL As if, I not only make it through but somewhere between summer and fall, I start crying for winter to come back. I really am a weird individual aren't I??? LOL
Anyway, it's late and I'm tired and congested and feverish, and I should be in bed right now, but I had to come in and post, I've been slacking lately and it's just not like me to do that. I think I'm going to make myself some hot tea with some honey and lemon and then head to bed. Hope you're all having a wonderful wednesday night...remember to stay warm.
God Bless,
I love snow, but it's frustrating when you get it and then within a few hours it's melted away. Nevermind that it is deceiving winter LOL but then I have to deal with the kids crying about wanting to go play outside and there is no snow left.....like I have a say in that. Hey snow angels....quit slacking on the job!!! Think that will do it???
Well anyway, I've been fighting a cold this past week, it's one of those that linger and tease you, one day you feel like you're sick and then the next it's like nothing happened.
Last night I went to bed and my voice was all but gone, just this little croak left, got up today with my nose congested, the same "sexy hoarse" voice *snort* (that's what I tell myself to feel better lol), and a killer of a headache. I think that all the stress my hubby and I have been under lately, doesn't help either.
I am again going to ask you all for your prayers, this time for my dad. I talked to him on the phone yesterday and apparently he has 2 clogged up arteries, seems that he needs to go in for an Angioplasty. I know it's not as serious as a bypass, but anything to do with the heart, really freaks me out, and then of course being so far from home doesn't help matters either. So please if you could add him to your prayer list, I would be forever thankful. I wanted to let you all know that I'm going to be removing my blogroll on the sidebar, I'm having a hard time updating it and trying to log into it PERIOD. So I'm going to just add everyone to my bloglines and delete my blogroll, much easier that way. Besides, everytime one of you updates it lets me know and it's easier than playing "ten guesses" with the blogroll menu. I thought I had it set up right but I guess I'm just not too dumb for the Blogroll people...
Last night I watched The Bachelor Rome and I'm just, I don't know, I'm a little confused I would say??? I honestly thought he was going to pick Sadie and then he went with Jen, and it was one of those What the Heck kind of moments for me. I guess I don't have the knack for predicting Reality Shows, either. Some people seem to hit the nail on the head everytime, they predict something and it really happens.
So I'm sitting here and I've got the shivers and the sniffles, I honestly feel a fever coming on. You know when your body starts aching and then you are freezing cold even though it's burning up in the house?? That is how I'm feeling right now, just knowing that I have to drive to school later to get Jasmine is making me want to run and hide under the covers. Hubby is working swing shift which means he goes in at 3pm, so I can't ask him to go and get her.
Lord give me strength to get through today and strength to fight this cold off as soon as possible.
I can't believe that Christmas is practically just around the corner, I have bought absolutely nothing for anyone, I'm usually one of those last week shoppers, I find I am happier getting all the gifts JUST before Christmas Eve, guess I'm a sucker for punishment.
I do have the lists semi started, and of course the kids have been handing me their own, these long long long lists of toys and then some "horses" thrown in. Yeah, don't you know that a horse would be a perfect addition to the family?
As much as I wish I could stay and chat longer, I'm really really not feeling very well, think I'm going to try and lay down for a bit before I have to get Jasmine. If there's one thing I hate doing is driving when I'm running a fever or feeling cruddy. Wish me luck.
Hope you all have a wonderful day.
I've been MIA (mising in action) for about a week or so, give or take a few days, and though I wish that I could come back with all these exciting stories of great adventures I've had or wonderful things I did, I come back with a rested body and soul.Believe me, THAT is a good thing!You know, I love the holidays, but good grief, the stress and chaos grate on my nerves, it really does feel great when things calm down and you're back to the day to day things.I always find that it's during these quiet *calms AFTER the storm*, that God gives you the little nudge, the little *wake up call* that reminds you just how good you have it. We're only human, and I'm the perfect example of the flawed and imperfect one.I tend to get so caught up in things and lists and *should be done's* that I forget what I really have around me and how blessed I already am.So I'm spending today doing things that will make the Lord proud. HOUSEWORK!!!Don't look at me like I'm nuts, I'm serious, you know it doesn't have to be all boring and unrewarded and chore-ish like. When you put your heart and soul into it, it's meaningful.Well come on in, it's snowing outside. Woke up to loads of snow and really really cold weather. I don't think I have to tell you all that I strongly dislike driving in the snow. The whole slippery roads thing just gets to me. You could get me to the dentist for a root canal, easier than you can get me to drive in the snow....but alas, the kids have school and I can't just hibernate for the winter. Can I??? Would it really be that politically incorrect if I did??? LOLLast night as I was channel surfing....yes it's become quite the tradition on weekends since there is NOTHING to watch.....I happened to stop on Breaking Bonaduce. Ok first off, you all know Danny Bonaduce right??? Red haired and freckled little one from The Partridge Family.I was disgusted to say the least, I mean I can't even put into words how frustrated I was watching his show on VH1, and for some reason beyond me, I couldn't look away.Maybe that's how some shows stay on the air??? They're so ridiculous that you can't seem to break away. But anyway, apparently his wife and some friends had gone out to dinner and he was left at home babysitting 4 kids and a dog. Not a biggie right??? WRONG!!! This man decided that it would be fun to shoot a BB gun in the house, and letting his little 3 or 4 year old do it too. If that isn't bad enough, then he gets the older one to shoot at HIM while the other kids watch and laugh.Now because things weren't already weird at that point, he takes the family dog, this tiny little thing and proceeds to smear bacon all over it, then wraps bacon around it's collar. Why you may ask???Well they're going out hunting coyotes and this is to attract them. Are you as freaked out and speechless as I was watching it???So now they're all walking around at night, with BB Guns, a puppy smeared in bacon, and they're just shooting off into the bushes and whatever....then they get freaked out at something that is moving in the dark and the daughter who is I would say about 13 or 14 starts cussing at this thing and almost shoots it with a BB gun. It turns out it's a lady with a stroller, just out walking the baby. OH.MY.GOODNESS!!!Yeah, let me tell you, NEVER again will I watch such filth. Unbelievable that it would be allowed on the tv. But then again I guess if it brings in the ratings, they could care less???If I wasn't so busy and had time to spend on the computer, I think I would have started a TV Blog just for my rants, because lately it seems the shows just get worse and worse.So anyway, I have cleaning to do and blogging to catch up on, Christmas cards to finish, laundry to iron, and so forth, you all know how my lists go, big enough to scare anyone away. But for some reason I find that I work best when I'm under pressure. For now I'm going to get my Menu Plan Monday up, didn't get to do it last week, then again you would have just seen Turkey and leftovers for most of the week, what fun is that???Alright ladies, I'm out of here, I hope you all have a wonderful Monday. Stay out of the cold and keep warm, I'll see you all tomorrow morning.God Bless,
For dinner we're having "Sandra's Jambalaya", it's a dish I came up with a couple months ago when I didn't know what to fix, but I had some chicken and smoked sausage. It's REALLY good :)
Rachael Ray
Viewers "trade" problems: One arranges the other's wedding while the other makes over the first person's house. Also: Rachael and a mystery taster prepare "French Onion No Soup."
General Hospital
Ric assigns Lucky to find Jason;
Alexis convinces Ric to allow Sam to see Kristina;
Alcazar tells Ric that Jason is alive;
Carly inadvertently tells Jax about her kiss with Sonny;
Tracy berates Luke.
Wife Swap
A freewheeling biker mom of three teenage girls from Illinois switches families with a New Jersey mother of two daughters who is a strict disciplinarian.
The Bachelor Rome
Lorenzo has one rose left to bestow in the season finale, but first he has intimate dates with finalists Sadie and Jennifer, and he asks permission from both of their fathers if he may marry their daughters.
Laundry
Ironing
Cleaning
Christmas Cards
Updating Blogs
Yep, 2 lbs later, I'm sitting there hitting myself for eating to much. Why do I do this every year, I mean, it's like Thanksgiving rolls around and I wear my sweatpants and baggy shirts so that I can fit all that turkey in.
I ate people, I mean ATE, non stop, that plate just kept getting refilled and it kept disappearing to God knows where, though I think my hips may have been the final destination. But anyway, after all that eating I did something so dumb, I stepped on the scale. What possessed me to do that???
Then I heard this loud shriek only to realize it was coming from me.....yep 2 lbs may not seem like much, but considering I gained it one day, that's scary LOL
Should I even tell you all that I am watching what I eat today??? I don't know why, I know there's tons of leftovers in the refrigerator just calling my name, it irks me that food can win me over so easily. LOL
Anyway, I know that I haven't been by to visit any of you the whole week, and I hate not being able to, but I'm sure you understand how hard it is to do anything with a sick little one. They get so clingy and whiny and just want mommy's attention.....I'm not complaining, any other time I try to plant a kiss on them or hug them I get the "hurry up, I'm playing" or the wiping away the kiss, isn't that just heartbreaking?
I can't believe that Thanksgiving has come and gone, could time really be flying by at such a turbo rate? This whole year is starting to feel like a blur to me, one minute it's January and the next we're only 30 days from Christmas....goodness.
I'm finishing off Christmas Cards today and then I'm starting to send them out, I like getting them out early so that I don't get stuck worrying over the holiday rush. Now I just need to start getting my christmas lists finished up and maybe start shopping???
I have the hardest time buying christmas gifts this early though, I feel like by the time christmas rolls around there's OTHER stuff I want to get, well that and the fact that I'm a lousy surprise keeper. Seriously....if I have a gift for someone I need to give it to them like YESTERDAY, I can't keep it hidden.
So today we're just hanging out, kids are playing and watching tv, hubby and I are sitting at the computers playing or surfing or whatever...it's just one of those relaxing days, no rush and no need to be everywhere at once. It has done a world of good to my soul and health, I'm feeling a lot more relaxed and rested....did wake up with a sore throat, but I'm not even complaining about that, it's minor compared to my FULL NIGHT'S sleep. Boy how I needed that.
Btw, I'm going to be changing my template to something christmasy soon, and then after the holidays will be back to this pretty pink one. Now I'm not sure when I'm going to do it, I haven't had much time for anything, so probably next week :)
Right now, I'm going to go grab some more coffee and head to your blogs for a quick "drive-by-comment", don't worry it won't hurt LOL
Have yourselves a wonderful weekend,
We're having leftovers today, there's no way I'm cooking with SO much food leftover :)
Rachael Ray
Thanksgiving-leftover ideas; outtakes from celebrity segments.
Ghost Whisperer
A high-school baseball pitcher is possessed by the spirit of a former major leaguer (Christopher Wiehl) who wants another shot at the game after his untimely death, which involved the boy's coach (John Mese).
Most Haunted
Searching for the truth behind stories of poltergeists at the Station Hotel.
Absolutely NOTHING
Well my friends, it's wednesday night, the night before Thanksgiving and I'm already preparing for the feast. This is the ONE time of year that I allow myself to eat like a pig, with no regrets and no holds barred.
See every other time I eat, and I just recently realized I was doing this, is about calories and "should I really be eating this right now, I mean am I REALLY hungry?", it's quite frustrating when you live that way, it really makes for a cruddy time at the dinner table, if you ask me. But now that I know I do it, I think I'm going to be working EXTRA hard at not allowing myself to think that way. From now on when I eat, I'm going to think "YUM" instead of "Ugghhh that's going straight to my hips".
Not tomorrow, I'm eating and not worrying.
So with it being just the four of us, it really never stops me from going all out with the meal, granted we are eating Thanksgiving leftovers for 2 or 3 days after that, but we still enjoy it. It's that ONE DAY that we all sit at the table and no one is rushing for anything, no homework or bathes, or hubby getting ready for work....we just sit down with a table full of wonderful food, and we talk and laugh and eat....and did I say we EAT?!?!?! I'm thrilled just at the thought!!! LOL
I truly hope that you all take the time to appreciate family and friends around you. Being a military family has it's blessings but I would say the biggest con for me is the distance from family during the holidays. It always gets me down and if you see me walking around with tears in my eyes, it's not that I'm an unhappy person, I'm really not, it's just that I miss the big get togethers and the talking and chaos that comes with sitting at a huge table with 20 or more people. I miss the noise, never thought I would say that!!!
Anyway, I'm sure you're wondering what that song video is up above my post, it is the beautiful voice of Robin Thicke. I LOVE this man's voice and low and behold this song was used in General Hospital's montage at the end of the show.
Can I just say, Kudos to the actors that make up the Spencer Family??? I have never in my life bawled my eyes out during a soap opera. But alas, there's a first time for everything right??? Well that was today, I cried my little eyes out and I'm in awe of the acting from Tony Geary and Genie Francis, Tyler Christopher, Julie Berman and Greg Vaughan....they totally blew me away. It was wonderful!!!
It is 9:30 pm and the kids are watching Frosty the Snowman on TV, but my little one is crying that he's tired and doesn't feel good and quite frankly, I feel the exact same way. I'm sooooo tired, I don't think that I can begin to express just how exhausted I really do feel. Usually by this time everyone is in bed and asleep....well, the kids at least. But being a long weekend they wanted to stay up later, and I let them, because that's the way I roll LOL
I wanted to just stop by and wish all of you a wonderful and happy Thanksgiving. Eat lots, love lots and be thankful for every little thing in your life.
I am heading to bed with my boy, have to be up early to start the cooking and want to be sure I'm rested :)
Goodnight everyone and HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!
