Saturday, September 21, 2013

Heaven gained another star tonight

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 From left to right:  Grandma Odete, me, my mom, Grandma Jacinta in 2008

It is so excruciatingly difficult and painful to be away from home on a good day, but when something happens it makes it even worse.

This morning we got news that my grandma passed away.  My grandma Jacinta is my mom's mother and she hasn't been well for a few weeks, she even ended up in the hospital two weeks ago but everyone thought she was doing better and well on the road to recovery.

Unfortunately, last week she started deteriorating again and this evening she passed away, at home in her own bed surrounded by her children.

It breaks my heart.  I have missed out on so much since I left South Africa 15 years ago, and when things like this happen it really reiterates for you the fact that you are thousands of miles away and not able to hug the people you love.

I'm trying to stay positive and I'm trying to see the positive side of everything, and knowing that she is no longer in pain is huge for me.  I'm so glad she is now reunited with her husband and in a sense, happy that she can now see me and my children from up above and will no longer miss out on our lives.

But folks, it hurts.  It's a pain unlike any other and it cuts right to the core.

So I want to take a moment and thank the Lord for putting Granny Jacinta in my life, for the time I spent with her, and for being given the opportunity to know this wonderful woman and to hug her and kiss her when I did have the chance.

Heaven has gained a new bright shining star tonight, but we've lost a part of our hearts.

Love you Granny and will miss you forever.

20 comments:

~Carla~ said...

(((Prayers & love))) So sorry for your loss, Sandra... xox

Virginia Valerie said...

I am so sorry for your loss, and so sorry that you can't be there.

Erika said...

I'm sorry for your loss. Prayers for you and your family.

Sherri B. said...

Dear Sandra, I am so sorry for your loss. It is so hard when we lose someone so close even when we know that they are in heaven and happy.

You and your family will be in my prayers. Big hugs to you. xxoo

Wendi said...

Sorry for your loss!

Kar said...

So sorry to hear about your Grandmother. I'm sure she is watching over all of you now. Hugs to you all.

Theresa said...

So sorry for your loss.

Susanne said...

So sorry for your loss, Sandra. May God comfort all your hearts.

Debbie said...

So sorry for your loss Sandra. My thoughts are with you and your family.

FlowerLady Lorraine said...

Dear Sandra ~ I am so sorry for the loss of your dear grandma Jacinta. The wonderful memories you have will be with you always and help you while you grieve.

Love, hugs and prayers for you and all of your family at this time.

FlowerLady

Mari said...

I'm so sorry for your loss, and that distance adds to the pain. Praying for all of you.

Judy said...

Oh Sandra, I can feel your pain in this post. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your loved ones. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Mama Boz said...

I will pray for you and your family...you are a strong woman Sandra. Hugs and God Bless.

Elizabeth said...

My heart weeps with you and I understand so very much about searching for the positive things about a loss like this...my own dear mother passed away this last May, very suddenly. I am an only child and so was she, so there are now memories that only I have, and there are some wonderful ones and those are the ones I try to concentrate on. And now she is in no pain and has no worries about money and she is watching us always. Love to you, Sandra.

Naomi said...

I am so sorry for your loss Sandra, and so sorry you can't be nearer to your family at this time.

You and your family are in our prayers <3
xxx

Conny said...

Very sorry for your loss ... I have family in Germany - many elderly - and have missed many funerals. I know what that feels like so well, and I am praying for you to just hold on to the good memories and share them with your children of the wonderful people you knew back in your home land. ((HUGS))

gail@more than a song said...

I'm so sorry for your loss, that must be so hard not to be with family.

Cher said...

Hugs to you and prayers for you and your family.

Dawn said...

Very sorry to hear of your loss.

Lori said...

Sandra, I'm so sorry. I lost my last Grandmother in June. I was fortunate to be with her when she passed, but it's never easy, either way. Thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.