{ Bitter sweet moments }

It is 6:09 PM.  

 

We have had dinner, courtesy of Qdoba Mexican Eats, animals have also been fed, my shower is taken, and I'm now sitting on my bed with my laptop.

 

I have my menu plan and grocery list notebook, laying just beside me, as I'm finishing up my list to be ready for grocery shopping in the morning.  It's one of those homemaker tasks that some may not enjoy, but I absolutely love.  Ok, the actual shopping is fun, but the act of putting it all away when you get home, is not my fave.  But still, I do it with a joyful heart!

 

So, I had already turned off my computer,  with no intentions of picking it back up, but I felt an impulse to switch it back on and get this post typed up.

 

Oh how I've missed sharing my days.  

 

When I first started blogging, I couldn't go a day without putting a post up, and I remember a time where I was putting up two posts a day.  How I ever managed that with two little kids, I have no idea.  

 

But I think it was the excitement of sharing my life and engaging with like minded homemakers and mommies.  Those were the days!

This week has been so busy, and on top of that, I have been struggling a bit.  I was trying to explain to my stepmother what I was feeling, but couldn't find the words.  There is nothing serious going on, but yet I feel unsettled in my spirit, like my mind is filled with constant thoughts, overwhelmed, sadness.  I don't know, it's just a very strange way to feel and I can't quite put it into words.

My wonderful stepmother understood exactly what I was saying.  Bless her heart, I'm so glad she did, and I think that maybe when some of you read this, you may relate as well.

There just seem to be moments in our lives where we feel a bit discombobulated, out of sorts.  It will be be fine, I'll be ok, but that is the reality of this week. 

One of the things that I know for sure are weighing on my heart, is the bitter sweet feeling that tomorrow, Friday the 14th, is the last day of Nick's school.  Next weekend he graduates.

 

With that realization comes a happiness because it's a huge accomplishment for him, but also a sadness that he is my last baby.  After tomorrow there will no longer be school aged children in my house, there will no longer be homeschooling lessons to get through.  

 

My goodness, how did we get to this point so quickly?

Anyway, that is what I've been focused on, schooling, my home, and trying to get back into cooking and baking so that I can continue putting up recipes on my food blog.

 

I had mentioned a while back that I missed updating the food blog regularly, but I hadn't realized just how much until I was menu planning and went to look through the blog.  It made me sad that I didn't really have any new yummy recipes on there.

 

I've also realized that I'm getting a bit tired of making the same thing over and over, it's time for a change, for new meals, for long hours digging through my cookbook collection.  Yes I think that is definitely in the future.

 

I've spent some time in the garden, tending to the plants, fruit trees and vegetables.  Even though our weather is a bit on the strange side at the moment.  I feel like I water the plants and then get a downpour of rain the next 2 days in a row.

At which point I stop watering, and then suddenly we have high temps for a week at a time, no rain and I'm left to scramble to get everything watered again.  Even then, the garden is thriving, fruit is growing, vegetables are growing, flowers are blooming.

The moments I do have to myself, I am choosing to fill with my crochet blanket and random shows or movies on the tv.

 

Yesterday, Jasmine had the day off, so we sat and watched a very sweet animated movie, called "The Secret World of Arrietty".

 

 

It reminded me of one of my favorite shows when I was a child, called The Littles.  They lived in the walls of a house, and would borrow all sorts of things to make their homes.    

 

 

I would rush home from school to be sure I didn't miss a single episode, and then I would sit and imagine what it would be like if I were one of them.  By the way, all the episodes are on Youtube.  Don't ask how I know!  Hahaha

 

I was just thinking the other day, that just a few years ago, two or three, I could pick a series and stay with it, watch it all the way through and it would have my attention.

 

Maybe I'm getting older, or maybe it's just the way that life has been going, but I can't seem to do that anymore, which means, I have a huge and I mean HUGE list of movies and shows I want to watch.  Problem is when I get a moment to watch something, I just can't pick one or I feel like I'm not in the mood for any on the list.

 

Anyone else?

 

It's so weird.  But I did spend some time adding new shows/movies to my Netflix and Amazon lists, hopefully soon I'll sit down and actually watch something and not just let it sit there.

It's sort of how I tackle list making.  Love the process, love making lists.  Do I use them?

Nope.  I never do.  I don't know why I even bother making them.  Boy I'm just a mess aren't I?

 

Yesterday I had a craving for some sort of cinnamon something.  Not sure what to make, I rummaged through my fridge and found a can of biscuits that needed to be used up.

I flattened them up, spread on some butter, sugar and cinnamon, cut them into strips, twisted them slightly and baked them.  Then I dusted them with powdered sugar.  So good, so easy, and the kids gobbled them up quicker than I could get them out the pan.

It's a great way to use up refrigerated biscuits.

In ending this post, I wanted to say a huge thank you to all who left such kind comments on my previous post, titled "Back to my Roots".    I was overwhelmed by the kindness and sweet comments from so many of you who are still here reading, years and years after you first found my blog.  What a blessing, thank you so much.

And yes, I am really trying to get back into the old daily posting.  Fingers crossed, hopefully now that school is finishing up tomorrow, it will be easier.

Well friends, I hope you all have a blessed night.  I am going to finish up my grocery list, read my bible and get some more rows done on my crochet blanket.