Saturday, April 25, 2015

Sweet Sixteen!



Let's see if I can get through this post without shedding a couple of tears.

My friends, it's finally here, my daughter turns 16 today and I am feeling extremely emotional.  This beautiful little red head that was placed in my arms and made me a mother for the first time, is now this gorgeous independent, self assured 16 year old young woman and I don't quite know how to handle that.

Proud doesn't even come close to what I feel for this child.

She hasn't always been the easiest to raise, truth be told, her strong personality and her stubbornness are traits which I admire but also detest at times.  She's a handful to be sure.

But, she is also the sweetest and kindest, and funniest, loving, honest, trustworthy, big hearted, sensitive girl I've ever come across and I couldn't have asked for a better daughter.

 

16 is a huge milestone, it's that big step towards womanhood, it opens up a whole new set of responsibilities and gets her one step closer to graduating and being out of the house.

As a mom I want to hold on to her for the rest of my life, I don't want to let her go, I want to continue picking her up when she falls, cradling her in my arms or rocking her to sleep when she's not feeling well.

I kept thinking that I wouldn't be able to do that anymore now that she's a young lady, but truth is, I can, it is just different in the way I am there for her.  

I've sat with her when she was hurting, I've held her in my arms when she had a fight with her boyfriend, I've nursed her back to health when she wasn't feeling well, I've helped her with school work, I've talked to her for hours about everything and anything, we've shared laughs, and she's held me up when I'm down.

I know some moms cringe at the word friend and believe you should never be your children's friend, only their mom.  I happen to believe the opposite, I don't think you need to not be their friend to be a good mother.  Thankfully I am both to this gorgeous girl and I wouldn't have it any other way.

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So, here we are, 16 years old, with the whole world before her and I am so happy that I get a front row seat to watch it all unfold.

For now though, I'm going to sit and cry a little because I can't believe she's actually this old.

Happy Birthday Jasmine, I love you with every fiber of my being and I'm so proud of the young woman you've become.  :)

Friday, April 24, 2015

Let's get back on track, shall we?

Sunset

Hi everyone, did you miss me?

Well I have decided that it's time to get back on track here on my little blog. 

Some of you may think I've lost my mind because right now, this very moment is not exactly the calmest in my life, it's actually the craziest and I'm spread very very thin.  But I think it's also the reason why I need to get back on here and document my every day before the move.

The move.....less than a month away, is quickly approaching and I'm scrambling folks, I feel like there is so much I need to get done and so little time to do it in.  Sometimes the overwhelming feeling creeps in and I panic, like for a hot second, but then I get myself back on track, or I try to at least.

I'm needing to post on my blog, I'm needing to feel grounded and normal and like I have a place to put all my feelings and emotions, and it will also be a great way for me to wind down the last few weeks here in Idaho, because truthfully, as much as I love this State I doubt I'll be back.

So, pictures of my day, thoughts, what I'm doing, what I've done, what is happening around me and even what is happening down in Texas with my hubby.  I'll try to update as much as I can, I mean there are days that nothing is really going on, but even then, I will be here, saying hi.

I'm trying to think what has happened that I haven't told you about, I guess quite a bit.

Lola::::::  Last week Saturday, I had my niece and nephew over for a sleep over, we watched a really scary movie, one I didn't even know about until I ran across it on a movie site.  It's called The Atticus Institute and my word, it was so scary.  It is based on a true story, the only US Government officially documented and accepted possession case.

We were up until late, I think like 1am, and then I headed to bed.  Was woken up at 3am with Lola having a seizure, and you know me, I always get freaked out with those.  After calming her down and getting back into bed, she woke me up again at 4:10am with another seizure.  By this time my nerves were just shot and I didn't want to go back to bed, so I made myself a cup of coffee and lay on the couch with her.

Lola

Thing is, every little movement from her had me jumping and scared that she was seizing again.  I thought everything was fine, but by 10am she had another so I took her to the vet.  After blood work was done, which came back normal, by the way, he thinks that she may be epileptic and has put her on Phenobarbital.

Not what I wanted to hear but you know for our children and our pets, we do everything, and $300 later I was back home.  She was actually given Valium to sedate her so she wouldn't have any more seizures and I started her on the medication right away.

What I did notice the past few days was that she was not herself, I think the Phenobarbital dose he gave was quite high for her so she seemed almost lethargic and sleepy constantly, it even affected her breathing.

I've now cut her down to half of the dose after speaking with the vet again and she is back to her normal self.  Please keep her in your prayers, if you will :)

Move::::::  I've been packing as I can, a little here and there and it's coming along nicely.  This weekend I will actually pack up Nick's room, save for his clothes, and I also want to try and start on Jasmine's.  Things move so much more smoothly when you have time to prepare and pack for a move.

Schooling::::::  is coming along, next week we have State Testing Tuesday and Wednesday and on top of that, we have Scantron Tests and the normal school work, which I don't know about you all, but it seems to just pile on right at the end of the year.  The amount of essays, research papers, presentations and speeches that these kids have to do, is absolutely ridiculous.  But we'll get there :)

Meals::::::   have been very simple with just the kids and I, I actually miss cooking.  I have cooked a few things here and there but for the most part, we're all about the really simple meals.

Like.....Challah French Toast.  So good.

Challah French Toast

Food blog::::::   Oh my goodness, I've actually had some emails asking if I've stopped the blog completely.  The answer is no, not on purpose but I definitely need to get in there and post some recipes.

I may do that tonight, I have quite a few on hold.

Crochet

Crochet::::::  Oh I miss it, oh my word do I miss it.  I was packing up my yarn the other day and I wanted to cry because I've done nothing with it for so long.  So I plan on keeping some out and getting back into hooking.

Gardening::::::  Things are still growing around here, my lettuce that I kind of placed out on the back porch and forgot about during the winter, is now coming back full force.  I'm quite excited about that.

My onions are sprouting like nuts.  Remember that big 50 pound bag of potatoes and onions I bought a few months back?  I've only now finished the potatoes and the onions I still have quite a few of, but some started sprouting.

I'm fine with that because I use them as Green Onions and just keep clipping and they keep growing.

Onions

Right, I think I've covered pretty much what has been going on around here, I'm sure by the time I close off this post I'll think of something else though, it's always like that :)

In the spirit of restarting the blog etc, I've also updated the template, which I'm sure you noticed when you happened upon this post.

Now, I'm off to take a nice long hot bath as I seem to be sick with a cold, I've had my fan in the bedroom on for a few days because Lola was overheating easily, what it's done though is that today I woke up with a bit of a chest cold, headache and congested and then had to run errands and got rained on.  By the time I got home I was really not feeling well and running a low grade fever.

I'm ready to just take a bath, put on some comfy pj's, make some coffee, grab my crochet and pop in a good movie or catch up on my youtube vlogs.

Hope you're all having a fantastic Friday and looking forward to the weekend.

Blessings,
Sandra

Monday, April 20, 2015

Happy Homemaker Monday - 04/20/2015

Good morning friends, sure hope you're doing well on this gorgeous Monday morning.  I had a not very good weekend with my Lola, very stressed and feeling like I'm reaching my breaking point.  But, that is all for another post.

Let's get on with our Happy Homemaker Monday, shall we? 



The weather outside is::::
Currently it's 40 degrees with a high of 74 today.  We had such beautiful weather this weekend, nice and warm and it really feels like Spring, finally. 

On the breakfast plate this morning::::
Coffee with Almond Joy Creamer and a Raspberry filled donut.  I'm feeling a little rebellious, but to be fair, I'm kind of needing a little pick me up.


As I look outside my window:::
My lawn is needing mowing, but the sweet neighbors across the street are coming over to do it this morning.  I didn't ask, but they know Curt is away at the moment and offered, which I found very kind on their part.  Greatful for good neighbors. 

Right now I am::::
On the couch with Lola, writing up this post and mentally planning my day.  We are less than 4 weeks away from when the trailer is dropped off and I have to really get my packing into gear. 

As I look around the house::::
Nothing new to say here, the moving stage of any home is not that exciting is it?  Boxes packed and unpacked are laying around, piles of items are seen in corners ready to be moved to the garage for easier packing.  The house is starting to look empty and it's sad in a way, but so very exciting in another.  

On today's to do list::::

Cleaning
Homeschooling
Packing
Listing some items on the classifieds for sale

Currently reading::::
Finished Running Fire and just have to get the review up.   

On the TV today::::

The Lizzie Borden Chronicles

If there be Thorns

My Portuguese Soaps - A Unica Mulher, Mar Salgado, Mulheres
The Following
Outlander
A bone to pick 

On the menu this week::::
Monday - Fried Chicken, Mashed Potatoes
Tuesday - Hotdogs (Zumba night)
Wednesday - Barbecue Pork Sandwiches
Thursday - Tuna Salad (Zumba night)
Friday - Pizza
Saturday - Jasmine's Birthday
Sunday - Salisbury Steak, Mashed Potatoes


Favorite photo from the camera::::
With everything that has been going on, I've been literally hanging on by thread, my wonderful daughter who loves cooking decided to make a very simple quick dinner.  She made this amazing garlic italian pasta which was delicious......and she called me to the table and this is what I saw.  Made me cry.  I love her.

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Prayers, Inspirational Quotes or Devotionals::::
As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God.
Psalm 42:1 NIV

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Monday, April 13, 2015

Happy Homemaker Monday - 04/13/2015

Good morning, here we are for another Happy Homemaker Monday.

I really need to thank all of you who still come in and post your links every Monday, you have no idea how much I appreciate it :)  So thank you, really.



The weather outside is::::
Currently it's 43 degrees with a high of 78 today.  I'm so looking forward to that, I can't even begin to tell you. 

On the breakfast plate this morning::::
Coffee and two pieces of toast with butter.  I've switched back to just water during the day and the pounds have started coming of, thrilled with that :)


As I look outside my window:::
The grass is sooooo green, but also in need of mowing again.  I ran out of gas in the mower last week and ended up only being able to mow half the back yard.  Have to get gas today and do the back and front, oh and I also need to get a spool for my weed eater so I can do the flower beds.  It's a beautiful day though so it will be nice to get some yard work in.     

Right now I am::::
Sitting on the couch and Lola is literally draped over my lap because she wants the toast I have for breakfast.  Silly dog.  I did take my shower already and am fully dressed for the day, usually I'm not that fast in the morning.

As I look around the house::::
Same ol' story with packing moves everywhere.  There are also some paint cans as I've been painting the walls, especially my chalkboard wall, which I'm sad about having to paint over.  

On today's to do list::::

Cleaning
Homeschooling
Yard work

Currently reading::::
Running Fire for a book review. 

On the TV today::::

The Lizzie Borden Chronicles

If there be Thorns

My Portuguese Soaps - A Unica Mulher, Mar Salgado, Mulheres
The Following
Outlander
A bone to pick 

On the menu this week::::
Monday - Chicken Stew
Tuesday - Tuna Sandwiches (Zumba night)
Wednesday - Fish Sticks, Potato Salad
Thursday - Hotdogs (Zumba night)
Friday - Patty Melts, Fries
Saturday - Country Skillet Breakfast
Sunday - Homemade Pizza


Favorite photo from the camera::::



Prayers, Inspirational Quotes or Devotionals::::
Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always.
Psalm 105:4

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Thursday, April 9, 2015

Dodging Curveballs

Sunrise

Hello friends :)

Well, it's Thursday morning and here I am, ready to sit down for a little and say hi, give you a small update and share a cup of coffee.

No matter how much I want to keep up with the blog, it's just not happening at the moment.

Life has been throwing us some major curveballs and I've been desperately dodging and when possible, grabbing and throwing them back.......far, far away from our lives.

I'm exhausted physically and mentally and quite honestly there are days that I just want to crawl into bed, pull the covers over my head and wake up a few months from now.  Then I realize that isn't possible or productive, so I push through and keep putting one foot in front of the other.

Breakfast

For the most part life is the same, in some ways.  I still enjoy waking up early before the house is awake, and taking some time to sit and read, check through email, enjoy a quiet breakfast etc.

And then there are the curveballs.

I think the biggest two we've been thrown have to do with the IRS and the kid's schooling with Connections Academy.

Oh IRS, I don't know about you but that name gives me hives.

So for the year of 2013, when my husband was enrolled in school, we unknowingly, and I say unknowingly because we truly didn't do it intentionally.....entered in one of his school w2's in the wrong section.

What has that error cost us?   $3600.

Yes, we are now being told we need to pay back $3600.  I'm sorry folks but that is not money that I have laying around or money that I could even come up with that quick to pay this off.  It's frustrating, it's disappointing and it's sad and nerve wrecking.  We have to pay it off in installments, obviously, but what horrible timing as we are trying to prepare for this move across country.

I am leaving it in the Lord's hands and I know it will all work out.

Sunrise

Then we come to the kid's schooling.  Texas has some crazy state legislation in place that is probably, at this point pretty certainly, going to prevent us from enrolling in Texas Connections Academy for the coming school year.

According to them, and mind you Texas is the ONLY state that requires this, my children will have to have attended a Texas public school before being eligible to enroll for the new year.

WHAT?!?!?!?!?

Not happening.  There is a reason why my children are in Connections and have been for the past 5 years.  I will  NOT put my children in public school, no matter the setting, or the reason.

I'm beyond frustrated at this point and I just don't understand why we can't even transfer the kids to the Texas Connections for the remainder of the year and then enroll them.

It might just end up that we move to Oklahoma, close to the border with Texas and have my children attend the Oklahoma Connections Academy.  Very strong possibility of that.

I would really appreciate some prayers at this point, not just for this but for the IRS and the move and everything else in my life.

It's one roller coaster that I can't seem to step off, and frankly, I'm starting to feel nauseated with the ride.

Packing

Aside from the craziness, the packing and preparing continues.  I've got piles of things all over the house and as I pack boxes, I move them to the garage to the area where everything is ready to go into the moving truck.

Spackling Paste

I've also been taking down pictures, filling in nail holes and pretty much making sure the house is ready for the walk through and move out.

Painting

The other day I had to paint over the chalkboard wall that I so loved.  That was a sad moment for me, but I'm hoping I can get another put up in Texas, or Oklahoma, or wherever we're moving to.

It is a lot of work, but I think that doing it this way is so much easier than leaving everything until the last minute and then rushing to get the house cleaned and patched up etc before moving out.  I would rather take my time.

I also have so many recipes that I need to put up on the food blog, and just haven't had time, I hope that I can carve out some time this weekend and sit down and just get everything updated.  Who knows, we'll see how things go.

Right, now I have to get on up, get dressed for the day and get cracking with my to do list.

Sure hope you are all doing well, I miss chatting with everyone, I miss visiting blogs, I miss taking photos and putting up posts and I miss the simplicity and the calm that I used to have last year.  I know I'll have it all back soon but sometimes it's frustrating and I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Anyway, let me get on with things.  Sending you all lots of love.

Sandra
xoxoxo

Monday, April 6, 2015

Happy Homemaker Monday - 04/05/2015

Good morning everyone.

Right, first I want to say that I'm so thankful that you all still continue to come by and participate in the Happy Homemaker Monday. Second I want to say that I miss my blog so very much and I don't think I've quite ever gone this long without posting a normal entry. Saddens me that I've been away and I want more than anything to get back in the game.

Life is just so complicated and busy at the moment that I'm quite tired of it, to be honest. I miss the old days where I had a much quieter and calm daily life, where I took photos and posted on here and talked to you all, I really really really wish and hope to go back to that. We'll see how things go.




The weather outside is::::
36 degrees at the moment.  It actually rained last night, but I didn't even notice, only saw everything wet this morning when I went to take Lola out.  The high today is supposed to be 55, so not really too warm.  Have I said lately how much I miss the warm weather??? 

On the breakfast plate this morning::::
Coffee for now, maybe a piece of toast.  I'm completely cutting out diet coke again and going back to just water.  I need the water, I feel much better when I'm just on water, my skin looks better and I feel overall healthier.  So, today is the day.......water again.  

As I look outside my window:::
Everything is wet from the rain storm last night.  I see the sun peeking in through the clouds so maybe we'll still get some sun later today.  The trees are all starting to bloom and it looks beautiful.  I really do love Spring time.    

Right now I am::::
Sitting here in my pj's and typing up this entry.  Trying to keep a running list of things I have to get to today, hope I can remember everything. 

As I look around the house::::
There are more boxes around and it's starting to look kind of empty.  It's clean, all I need to do today is sweep again and mop. 

On today's to do list::::

Cleaning
Homeschooling
Packing

Currently reading::::
Running Fire for a book review. 

On the TV today::::

The Lizzie Borden Chronicles

If there be Thorns

My Portuguese Soaps - A Unica Mulher, Mar Salgado, Mulheres
The Following
Outlander
A bone to pick 

On the menu this week::::
Monday - Hearty Chicken Soup
Tuesday - Tuna Sandwiches
Wednesday - Handmade Ricotta Cavatelli
Thursday - Sausages in Tomato Sauce w/ mash
Friday - Patty Melts, Fries
Saturday - Nick's Birthday (3 Cheese Pasta, Cream Cheese Pound Cake)
Sunday - Homemade Pizza


Favorite photo from the camera::::




Prayers, Inspirational Quotes or Devotionals::::
We know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
Romans 8:28

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Monday, March 30, 2015

Happy Homemaker Monday - 03/30/2015

Good morning everyone, happy Monday.  I am not sure if I'm quite ready for this week to start, but only for the fact that it means Spring Break is over and we're back at it.  On the other hand though, it means one week closer to moving and being reunited with the hubby, so yay to that.





The weather outside is::::
38 degrees right now and a little nippy, but it's supposed to get to 71 degrees by this afternoon, so that will be nice.  The rest of the week looks pretty much the same so I'm going to enjoy it as much as I can.

On the breakfast plate this morning::::
Just coffee for the moment and I'm not sure how much I'll eat today, my stomach doesn't feel too right so I may go very easy on the meals for myself. 

As I look outside my window:::
Beautiful blue skies and a really bright sun.  There's quite a few cars going by on their way to work, one of the neighbors is mowing their lawn, and there is a sprinkler also going on a house just down the street.  

Right now I am::::
Typing up this post, sitting here on the couch and enjoying my coffee while still in my pjs.  I'm a little cold so I have a blanket over my legs too....oh and the usual snoring Lola next to me. 

As I look around the house::::
The sun is shining and streaming in through the front door window.  I love this time of the day, everything looks so warm and cozy and sleepy.  I was just looking at my gloves/hats/scarves basket in the corner and thinking I need to pack it away for the move, don't really need any of that anymore.

On today's to do list::::
Laundry
Cleaning
Homeschooling
Menu planning and grocery list

Currently reading::::
Running Fire for a book review. 

On the TV today::::

Did you see the new series coming out based on the Lizzie Borden movie/story that just aired a few months ago?  I'm so excited for this one.  The Lizzie Borden Chronicles stars Christina Ricci and will air April 5th on Lifetime.

There's also a follow up to Flowers in the Attic, which was also really good.  This one is called If there be Thorns and also airs April 5th on Lifetime.

On Sky Living there is a new 3 part series which I'm also quite excited about since I love paranormal stuff.  The Enfield Haunting is based on real events that took place in a home in 1977.   There isn't a definite date yet, but it's coming soon.

My Portuguese Soaps - A Unica Mulher, Mar Salgado, Mulheres
The Following - all caught up, new one is tonight and I can't wait
Secrets and Lies - watching this one today

The Haunting of - haven't caught up
Ghost Adventures - haven't caught up
Supernatural - haven't caught up

On the menu this week::::
Working on a menu plan today so nothing yet for this week.  Today we'll be having leftovers to clear out the fridge.  Tomorrow I need to go grocery shopping.


What I am creating at the moment::::
Just stacks of moving boxes....I guess you could say I'm quite busy playing Tetris hahahay


Favorite photo from the camera::::
 



Prayers, Inspirational Quotes or Devotionals::::
We know that we live in him and he in us, because he has given us of his Spirit.
1 John 4:13

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