Sunday, October 14, 2012
Weight has always been an issue with me. I've never been overweight, but I've never been happy with my weight either. There's always been these 10 pounds that have haunted me since having my children.
I want nothing more than to wake up one day, look at myself in the mirror and just be happy with how I look.
I want to be able to eat without constantly worrying about the calories, or thinking with every bite that I'm packing on the pounds. I just want to eat without the guilt and it's something I've never been able to do.
To say that it's tiring, is pointless. And I'm more than ready to really get serious about this.
I can't diet though, forget it, and I am finding out that counting calories (though it's worked before), is not really doing it for me this time around. I'm miserable folks.
So I've made a decision. I will watch what I eat in the sense that I will not overdo it, I will limit my intake of junk food, eat more fruits and veggies and I will exercise at least 3 times a week.
I've had to tell myself that it's either I diet and hate every step of it, OR, I eat what I want but I compromise by exercising and taking care of my body.
Best part about this, is that I have the best family on earth. They love me, they support me and they are all ready to jump right in on this journey.
So we're exercising together. My husband already does it during the week and I'll do mine at home, but every weekend we are hitting the Base track, as a family.
My boy brings his bike along
Needless to say, crochet is never too far from this mama....my little bag holds bottled water and the camera of course :)
It's not easy, I start running those laps and I want to quit so badly, because my legs hurt and my chest is on fire and I feel like I'm going to hack up a lung....but I close my eyes, I breathe constantly and I pray through it. Today, I was able to do 2 whole laps without stopping and walking at. That is HUGE for me.
Miss Jasmine doesn't much care for exercise, but she's a good sport and she gets out there with us and does her best. After today though, she has told me that she is starting to enjoy it and can't wait to go back next weekend. (she's such a goofball, the minute she sees the camera she makes faces for me lol)
My two boy loves. I just love seeing them together, they run laps and talk and laugh, and cheer each other on.
My love, my support, my biggest cheerleader. I couldn't do this without him :)
My other little cheerleader, he sees me struggling and runs out to run with me :)
And when we've done laps he breaks out his bike and flies around the track for fun
I don't know how to even begin to explain to you all, just how important it is to have a family that is willing to exercise together, to push each other through this and to know that we are not alone.
And the thing is, exercising does not have to be boring, it can be so much fun if you do it together.
So wish me luck. I'm determined to make this work and I know I can do it.
Because one thing is for sure, I love cooking, I love food and I can't stop being who I am. I wouldn't be able to make it away from a kitchen with delicious food on the stove....so I compromise.
It won't be easy, I'm sure there will be days that I will want to scream NO, or say "forget it". But I can't, I have to and I WILL make this work.
Monday, Wednesday and Friday I'll be working my little butt off.....
Monday - Zumba
Tuesday - 30 Day Shred
Friday - Aerobics
Sunday - Track