I have to start by thanking every single one of you, who left a comment, offered words of advice, let me know I wasn't going through this alone, and gave me hope that there IS an end in sight. Actually a very easy end in sight, if only my anxiety and brain would cooperate.
But I'm trying very and I mean VERY hard to beat this negative way of thinking and to get back to the happy, go lucky, go with the flow and whatever happens happens, Sandra.
So again, thank you, you all made me feel so much better.
I do think, and actually have suspected for a while that I may be in Perimenopause. Many of the symptoms are things I'm dealing with, I just didn't know that anxiety, and this crazy paranoia was one of them. Good grief.
Anyway, I thought I would share with you a little of my day before going to sleep. I need to do it quite quickly as I'm drinking some hot milk with whiskey to knock out whatever is lingering around my son and I. He has a sore throat and sore body/weakness, I don't have a sore throat but around 10am it hit me out of nowhere and my body is really achy. I started meds right away and felt great for 5 hours but it came back again, so I've taken more cold meds and now I'm doing my grandpa's trusty hot milk and whiskey. I'll be sweating like a pig here in a few but it will be worth it......only thing is, I've been having night sweats for about a month, so yeah didn't need more LOL
I've finished a few devotionals on my Bible app and picked up a few more. It has been amazing to start feeling that shift in my way of thinking and the closeness to God. There's something beautiful about the moment you start letting go. I'm nowhere near where I want to be, but definitely moving in the right direction. Every day is a struggle with my mind.
