{ Thank you for the prayers }

Good morning everyone :)

I just wanted to come in real quick and thank you all for the prayers, the advice and the support you've shown me here on the blog, on Facebook, Instagram and even private messages.

The past few days have been extremely difficult for us and our son.

I don't want to talk too much about it, for various reasons, but mainly because I don't want to expose too much on here in regards to my son, he is 15 and he does deserve some privacy.

I will say that after going through this with my daughter, it's easier to understand the process, it's easier to understand what he's going through and we've learned how to talk to him, and how not to approach this subject.  It also helps that Jasmine is able to relate to what he's feeling and is also able to help us understand where he is coming from.

When you have a child that is showing signs of depression, that tells you that they feel insignificant or worthless, there is a trigger that happens inside us.  I want so much to drill into him that all of those things are not true, but what I believe and what he feels, are two very different things.

Anyway, all of your prayers, along with all the prayers he has been receiving and the church lists he's been added to, prayer chains and so forth, are starting to show in his behavior.

One thing we learned was not to push too much or constantly hammer on things, he talks to us when he is ready and that has been really good to see.  He is opening up, he is expressing his feelings, he is wanting to spend more time with the family, he is out of his room for hours at a time where before we could not get him out of there for longer than it took for him to eat dinner.

We still have a very long process ahead, but we've all pulled together as a family and we've told him as well that we will ALL get through this together, just like we did with Jasmine.

At first I asked "why me again?  I went through it with Jasmine, why do I have to go through this with Nicholas?".

But I am no longer thinking that way, I'm praying for my son, I'm praying for me for wisdom, to know how to approach him, to know the right words to use when talking to him, to be patient, to have strength and more than anything, for the Lord to work in my son's heart to show him that he is an important part of this family and very much loved.

So, thank you all for helping me through this process.  I will try to keep you updated on what is going on, and any day now, Tiffany will be having her baby so we will be headed to San Diego, so I'll definitely be blogging more from there and sharing photos etc.  Nick is coming with me, he has agreed to go and I think it will be a wonderful change of scenery for him.

So often with teens just a change of place and change in routine, helps them so much.  I'm hoping this trip is what he needs to start feeling somewhat better.

Lord, I pray Your emotional, physical, and spiritual protection over my son. Keep evil far from him, and help him to trust You as his refuge and strength. I pray You will guard his mind from harmful instruction, and grant him discernment to recognize truth. I pray You will make him strong and courageous in the presence of danger, recognizing that You have overcome and will set right all injustice and wrong one day. Help him to find rest in Your shadow, as he lives in the spiritual shelter You provide for him. Let him know that the only safe place is in Jesus.  Amen!

{ Happy Homemaker Monday - 06/18/2018 }

Good morning everyone, hope you're all having a good Monday morning so far.

I'm doing ok.  We have some family issues going on, this time with Nicholas and I really need some prayers for my son.  I don't want to go into details but he seems to be suffering from depression as well and I'm extremely worried about him at this point.

Having gone through a horrid ordeal with Jasmine's depression and anxiety, it seems that the past is repeating itself and I'm at a loss.  We just need a lot of prayers right now.   

The weather.....It's been pretty hot but looks like we'll be in the lower 90's this week, with possibly a thunderstorm midweek.  

Right now I am....Have the World Cup soccer on the TV, have laundry going and I'm trying to get this post up for you all.

Thinking....About what is going on with my son.  We are trying to help him through this and will do whatever we need to.  It's so hard when they're 15 years old, the hormones are raging and there's so much going on in their heads.  He is very withdrawn, doesn't want to get out of his room or do anything, it's almost a daily fight with him.  Friends, I'm honestly terrified at this point.

On my reading pile.... The summer list.  The review will be up this Wednesday.         
 
On my TV.....The World Cup and that's pretty much it for the next month.

On the menu for this week....

Monday - Chipotle Burrito Bowls

Tuesday - Pulled Pork Sandwiches, Fries

Wednesday - Spaghetti with garlic bread

Thursday - Chicken Pie, Salad

Friday - Vegan Burgers, Onion Rings

Saturday - Pizza

Sunday - Leftovers

On my to do list....

Finish all the laundry
Carpet clean
Going with my sister in law to a doctor's appointment
Start packing for San Diego

In the craft basket....Nothing at the moment.

Looking forward to this week....Nothing really, and I'm sorry if I seem a bit off today, I'm just so stressed, anxious and worried.  We're dealing with some serious issues and I am struggling to keep myself calm and cool headed through it all.  


Looking around the house....It's clean and I don't need to do much, which is a good thing because I got no sleep last night and I'm absolutely exhausted this morning.

From the camera....
My big boy Marley.

{ Slow and steady }

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A few days ago I was out back and kept wondering why one of my flower hanging baskets was looking so bare.  Where was it all going and why did it look so messy in there, like it had been ripped at with bare hands.

Few hours later, I realized exactly what had been happening.  See the bird above?  It had been flying back and forth between my basket and the tree about 20 feet from our back door.

It wasn't rushing, it wasn't fluttering about in a hurry, it was just content slowly picking at the moss, flying back to build it's nest and then returning.  This went on for a couple of days, same thing, over and over and over, and you know what?  It took quite a while for it to be happy with the amount of moss it needed, but it got done, at a slow and steady pace.

A few days later I was in the backyard watering my plants, when I saw this guy slowly making it's way through my grass.

I have no idea where it came from or where it went after it made it's way through the long yard, but I have no doubt that he got to where he wanted to go.

And so, I've kind of been doing the same the past few days.  For some reason I've always been the kind of person to get things done quickly and efficiently, even folding laundry I always feel like I'm quickly doing it.

The other day I deliberately took my time folding the clothes as I removed them from the dryer.  One piece at a time, slowly, folding, not rushing and at first I felt so weird but I continued to deliberately move slower and what I found is that I actually enjoyed the process a lot more.

I honestly think at lot of our daily stresses are self imposed, and I'm speaking for myself here, I would never dream to presume what others are thinking or feeling.

So slow and steady is going to be implemented more often, especially on the days that I have no outside appointments or commitments.

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{ Poldark, Call the Midwife and other binge worthy shows }

Oh hello there!!!

Isn't that picture above just the prettiest?  I like to look at it and think that I would have just loved living in that setting, in that red house in a cute country road with just trees and flowers around me.  Oh it would be blissful, though I'll say, I do love where I live now and wouldn't change it for anything :)

This past week has gone by so quick for me, I've been busy with the usual household chores and mom/wife duties, and so by the end of the day when I really should be putting my thoughts down here in my old little blog, I'm instead putting my head on the pillow and passing out almost immediately.

I feel like I repeat myself over and over at times, like I can't muster up or form a coherent thought about my day and write it in a blog post to make some sort of sense.

"I'm busy", "I'm doing the usual household", "I wish I could blog more", "I wish I could have more time for crocheting or doing the things I really enjoy".

I swear you must find this to be the most drab and uninteresting, mind numblingly boring blog, and quote honestly at times I think that myself, but when your days are pretty much the same, day in and day out, that kind of tends to happen doesn't?

Quite possibly the reason many old bloggy friends no longer blog on a daily basis or much at all.

But I don't want that to be the reason that I stop coming by and talking, even if it's just  random babbling about something I've done, or the past few days or whatever strikes my mood.

I guess you'll just have to keep coming back to see what the heck this girl is up to, right?



This little man keeps me company throughout the day, he truly is my shadow and is always either laying on my lap if I'm on the couch, or laying nearby as I clean, or under my feet in the kitchen, outside, wherever I go.

He absolutely loves drives and walks, and has a special drive he does with his daddy every Sunday.

They hop into daddy's truck and head up the street to Braum's for a bag of burgers (only $4 if you're wondering), then they get back home and they each have one for lunch, then play and then he goes down for a nap.  Hahaha

It's a routine, and it really makes me think of him as a toddler with the naps during the day and play time.  Love him so much :)

Every morning, this is how you'll find me.  After I've sent hubby off to work with a cup of coffee and his lunch for the day, I retreat to this spot on the couch, check emails, drink my own coffee and then catch up on some youtube vlogs or lately.....some favorite Period Dramas.

I've been rewatching Call the Midwife because, well, because it's fabulous isn't it???

Also just watched Poldark because Season 4 started on Sunday and I LOVE LOVE LOVE Poldark.

Another show I've been watching or rather binge watching with the hubby, has been the Netflix show Lost in Space.  It is good, we enjoy it so much and have to control ourselves so we don't watch the whole season in one day.  If you like SciFi or Space related shows, you have to check it out.

I've also come across a few great new period dramas, and one that I want to mention to you is The Picnic at Hanging Rock starring Natalie Dormer.    It is based on the Joan Lindsay's 1967 novel and then later a movie and now turned series.    It is about a governess and her 3 schoolgirls who mysteriously disappear on Valentine's Day in 1900.

I've only watched the first episode and of course enjoyed it very much, then again when don't I enjoy a Period Drama right?

Also, starting this Thursday, the World Cup kicks off and of course being a huge soccer lover, it is one of the things I most enjoy watching, even if it only comes around every 4 years.

Portugal play their first match on Friday so you know this household is going to be a ball of nerves, but it's always so much fun watching with the whole family.

Well friends, that's basically what I've been up to the past few days.  I'm just going to finish off an episode of Call the Midwife and then it will be time to start getting dinner taken care of.

I'm making some Bratwurst with Grilled Onions and probably some potato wedges.  Quite simple but we have been enjoying some easier meals now that it's super hot and humid here.

Curt and I have also been downing and I mean downing gallons of water with cucumber and lemon.  So good.

Right, I better get going or I'll be here all day because something will keep popping up that I want to talk about, you know that how is.

Have a great Tuesday afternoon everyone :)




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{ The Garden of Blue Roses by Michael Barsa - TLC Book Tour }

• Paperback: 248 pages
• Publisher: Underland Press (April 17, 2018)

“Ominous, fantastic, and wonderfully malevolent…. I felt the spirits of Shirley Jackson, Edgar Allan Poe, and Albert Camus’ Meursault, whispering to join the fun.”– ALICE SEBOLD, #1 best-selling and award-winning author of The Lovely Bones

A car lies at the bottom of an icy ravine. Slumped over the steering wheel, dead, is the most critically acclaimed horror writer of his time. Was it an accident? His son Milo doesn’t care. For the first time in his life, he’s free. No more nightmarish readings, spooky animal rites, or moonlit visions of his father in the woods with a notebook and vampire make-up.

Or so he thinks.

Milo settles into a quiet routine–constructing model Greek warships and at last building a relationship with his sister Klara, who’s home after a failed marriage and brief career as an English teacher. Then Klara hires a gardener to breathe new life into their overgrown estate. There’s something odd about him–something eerily reminiscent of their father’s most violent villain. Or is Milo imagining things? He’s not sure. That all changes the day the gardener discovers something startling in the woods. Suddenly Milo is fighting for his life, forced to confront the power of fictional identity as he uncovers the shocking truth about his own dysfunctional family–and the supposed accident that claimed his parents’ lives.

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About Michael Barsa

Michael Barsa grew up in a German-speaking household in New Jersey and spoke no English until he went to school. So began an epic struggle to master the American “R” and a lifelong fascination with language. He’s lived on three continents and spent many summers in southern Germany and southern Vermont.
He’s worked as an award-winning grant writer, an English teacher, and an environmental lawyer. He now teaches environmental and natural resources law. His scholarly articles have appeared in several major law reviews, and his writing on environmental policy has appeared in The Chicago Tribune and The Chicago Sun-Times. His short fiction has appeared in Sequoia.
The Garden of Blue Roses is his first novel.

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My Thoughts:

If you enjoy psychological thrillers, then this is the book for you.  It will have you on the edge of your seat, quickly wanting to turn the page just to know what is going to happen next.

The book follows Milo and Klara, two adult siblings who have just lost their parents in a car accident.

Their father a bit of a strange man who lived his life surrounded by violence, alcohol and darkness, a large part of it due to the fact that he was a famous horror writer, and their mother a somewhat of an enabler to their father's strange behavior.

Instead of feeling heartbroken after their death, Milo is almost relieved and gains a sense of freedom, but he is by no means a docile and innocent man himself.  He actually quite disturbed me in some ways, as it is painfully obvious that there is something very wrong with him.

His sister Klara is strange all in her own way.

The story is filled with twists and turns, dark characters, ups and downs and all around horror atmosphere that really does help set the mood for a fantastic albeit scary novel.