Simone Weil -- “To be rooted is perhaps the most important and the least recognized need of the human soul.”
Credit: Down on the Farm
I'm dreaming today, totally in dream land and allowing myself no limits on my imagination and what I want for my future.
It's why I want to talk about roots today and putting down roots.
Sometimes I think that it's pretty sad that we are almost 40 years old, have two children and haven't put down roots anywhere.
My kids won't ever be able to show their own children the house they grew up in...the room that was theirs throughout their childhood, the tree in the backyard that held the tire swing.
We're military, we don't have roots, we don't have predictability, we don't have a home we brought our children to as newborns, a home where they took their first steps, or markings on a wall showing their height as they grew through the years.
I would love nothing more than to look out into my backyard and see a big old tree that I have watched grow for many years. It's quite depressing at times, and I am opening my heart and telling you all that I do feel a little bit of envy when I see families who have those roots that I so yearn for.
But, with all that said, it's also one of the reasons I'm so excited to be leaving in a few months. We'll be buying a house, our own house, where I can pain the walls whatever color I want, where I can add this or remove that, where I can plant fruit trees and do whatever I please without having to go through all the red tape.
So I'm on a mission, and I'm collecting and bookmarking and saving and excitedly planning.....dreaming!!!
That's it....just dreaming of all these things. Truthfully, I don't think I'll get them all, but it doesn't hurt to wish and hope and imagine as big as you can.
Country living. Right up there at the top of my wish list. I would really love a home in the country surrounded by trees and lots of empty space.
Would be nice to have a yard with an actual fence, not these community fences that are just plain awful.....a yard where I can grow whatever I want to without having to ask for permission or being told that it's not allowed on base.
And chickens, lots of chickens running around, clucking away...
I'm sure my actual house will end up being nothing like this, but just the fact that I will be able to say it's ours and our children will be able to call it home and really mean HOME where they will finish their childhood years and start college and marriage and their own families, and come home to for holidays.....that I think is what matters the most.
So I'm going to keep dreaming, and thinking, and collecting ideas and really looking forward to the next big chapter in our lives......but I'm also going to keep myself firmly planted in reality.
And now that I've put it all out there for you, I'm going to go admire my newest yarn bucket.
Had a metal tub that I purchased at Goodwill about a year ago, grabbed some fabric, the hot glue gun and some pretty trim and now I have something very pretty and very ME.
Also have to take Lola to the vet in a few hours, she's been doing very well since the incident, so we'll see what the vet says. Thank you again for all the prayers and if you could throw some more our way I would appreciate it.....also some prayers for my brother and sister in law, they had to put their dog down in the middle of the night. He suffered from seizures and was on medication but last night he was seizing non stop, they couldn't control it and the vet couldn't either. They were so heartbroken :(
I hope you all have a good rest of Friday and I'll be back tomorrow with some Five Senses Saturday which I haven't done in so very long, will be fun to do it again :)