You know for a mom there is NOTHING more precious than those extra hours or minutes in bed, and thankfully I've been blessed this weekend with some good sleep. Saturday night I actually fell asleep at 10pm and didn't wake up until 8:30am, uninterrupted sleep without the usual bathroom breaks during the night.
I'm one of those that gets up at least twice a night, really, I don't know why my bladder can't just wait until the morning and it's frustrating to have to keep waking up for it. So you know when I don't get up, it's something new to me, it's a welcomed break LOL
Today I'm being lazy though, maybe I got too much sleep??? I better not say it out loud though because hubby will look at me and give me the "are you ever happy with anything?" look. Why yes, yes I am, but I am allowed to complain right.....not constantly but sometimes maybe?
I had NO luck whatsoever with the movies I had to watch, mind you I haven't gotten to United 93, I'm having a problem with that one, I really want to watch it but I also am dreading going back to that moment in time, it's bad enough that when a show comes on the tv, if it is anything about 9/11, it gives me a knot in my stomach and I end up crying through it....do I honestly want to put myself through that again??? Decisions, decisions!!!
So I sat down in front of the tv yesterday afternoon, that's not something that happens very often only because everyone (mainly the kids) seem to claim the big tv in the living room, and I have to resort to my bedroom if I want to watch something. Ugh, now that I've typed it out I realize how pathetic that sounds, I mean, I AM THE MOTHER right??? Aren't I supposed to be in charge and make the rules??? LOL
But whatever, anyway, I got the tv to myself and it's one of those big huge ones that make you feel like you're at the movie theater, plus throw in the surround sound and bowl of popcorn and I'm right THERE. I pop in "Reign of Fire" only to realize that not only have I seen it before, but I hated it the first time around.......how the heck did I get it again without even realizing it??? I'm thinking it has to do with the gorgeous pic of Matthew McConaghey on the front....yep, I'm blaming him for my moment of "dumbness".I quickly remove that one and pop in "The Cave"....UGH, what the heck??? Talk about a stupid movie, I didn't like it at all.....so now I'm annoyed and I want to watch something dagnabit, I have the tv and I WILL MAKE USE OF IT. I pop in one of my Netflix movies "The Ghosts of ...." can't even remember...and the narrator is this woman with the most annoying monotonous tone I've ever heard, okkkkaaayyyyyy, take THAT one out and pop in the next one "The ghosts and witches of Olde England"....(see the pattern here, I must have been in a supernatural mood when I ordered these movies)....now I'm faced with a perky nasaly voice that is as annoying as nails on a chalkboard. Pop THAT sucker out too!!!
I GIVE UP, just take the tv back, it's become too stressful to find something to watch LOL
I decided to just go and make dinner, cooking has always been something that calms me down. I turn the radio on and cook, look through cookbooks or bake....it really is food for my soul. After 30 minutes, I had a wonderful Chicken Curry ready, the family raced to the table and devoured it....there's nothing better than sitting down to see everyone eating and having seconds and praising "this is soooooo good mommy"...."man, sandra this THE best meal on earth, definitely my favorite". Again, Food for my Soul!!!
I was looking for tickets for us for the upcoming Africa trip and ummm.....I don't know how I haven't had a heart attack yet? LOL
I don't know how anyone affords to travel overseas, I mean, even if it's just one person it's expensive, but when you have 4 tickets to buy, it's a LOT. We're looking at around $8000!!! *GASP* Lord help me! LOL
This is one problem that I am certainly putting in the Lord's hands and asking, or begging for His help with....I do know that in the end everything will work out, but now I have to literally force myself to let it go. It's not easy though, I do it constantly, I give Him something and within 5 minutes I'm inquiring about it:
Me - Ummm, I know you're busy and all that, but did you get to my problem yet?
Lord - Actually, no I haven't, why don't you just quit worrying about it, it's in good hands.
Me - yeah I know, but, I really would like this done like now.....you think you could push my issue to the front of the line?
Lord - Sandra, you need to be patient, remember that things are done in My time.
Me - Ok.....
*5 minutes later*
Me - So, I know it's only been 5 minutes, but I can't stop thinking about this, anything yet?
Lord - No, not yet, why don't you learn how to wait purposely?
Me - Hmmm ok, well look I'll just take this back and do it myself....
Why do I DO that???? I always give it to the Lord and then quickly snatch it back because it's not going fast enough for me, or it's not the results that I was waiting for, and I spend so much time worrying about it that I fail to see what I was to have learnt from it. I know I seem to have completely strayed from the whole ticket thing, but really I didn't, it's just an example of what I usually do when I say I will leave it in His hands.
Going to try REALLY hard this time to not interfere and to wait in His "Waiting Room" without pouting and whining and complaining.
Anyway, I better get on out of here, have to get lunch ready and then watch General Hospital, and then I'll be coming by to say hi to you all.
God Bless,
