{ Being a homebody }

A few years ago, I used to struggle with being a homebody.  Not because of my own thoughts and feelings, but because of the way I was perceived by others, the comments, the digs, the "you're so anti social" and the constant need to make me feel like I was boring and didn't fit in.

It's hard to try and please people and society in general, when it goes against everything you think and feel.  I struggled, a lot, and then one day I thought, to heck with it, this is who I am and I don't need to apologize or force myself to fit into some mold that was created by society.

There is no right or wrong way to be, whether you're a homebody or a social butterfly, what matters is how that makes you feel.

I wouldn't trade the way I am, for anything in this world.  Don't get me wrong though and assume that I am indeed anti social or don't like being around people.  I do, but not all the time, and as much as I love big get togethers with family and hanging out and having fun, the feeling of returning home to my safe haven, is what I most look forward to.

It is in no way a diss to people, it's not even a negative feeling, it just IS.

There is a peace and abundant joy in being in my home.  Everywhere I look, every nook and cranny is a reflection of myself and what I love.

I would much rather be right here, in this spot, between these 4 walls, than out partying, shopping, being in big crowds and constantly surrounded by people.  That's not to say that there is something wrong with that, there isn't, if that is what you love doing and it makes you happy and brings you joy, then do it.

I try to make every room in my home functional but cozy.  I want anyone who visits my house, to be able to feel at home, to feel like they could just sit and drink a cup of coffee and relax.

But not just for visitors, for myself and my family too.

I don't think I've ever shown you this corner of my kitchen.  Truthfully, it hasn't been like this for a very long time because I'm always adapting, changing, reorganizing and so on.  It's like when you first move into a home and you place things where you think they will go, and months down the line you realize that it's not at all functional and will be better in a different room/shelf, position.

There are certain spices or items that I use on a daily basis, when I'm preparing our meals.  I used to just zip around the kitchen from pantry to fridge, to cupboard grabbing this and that.  I decided to make my life a lot easier but placing a tray near the stove, with some of those items I use the most.  It has certainly made cooking easier by having everything within reach. 

I get such joy from pottering around my house, cleaning, making things, moving and changing and reorganizing.  I get pleasure from every single task I do, and I think I feel that way because I know that I'm not just doing things for no reason, but for me, my husband and children.

Even for this little cutey who brings a huge smile to my face.

I don't think I'll ever be anything but a homebody and I thank God every day, for making me the way I am.