TREASURE TUESDAY!!!

The treasure I have to share with you all today, is near and dear to my heart. It's a "Journal" that I kept from the first day I met my husband, to the day we married. As many of you may know, ours was a complicated relationship as I talked about here.

I kept the journal and wrote in it every night, my thoughts, my fears and my joys. The ups and downs of our relationship, the deployments, the year apart etc., everything was written down and when I go back and read it nowadays it's just amazing how many different emotions and feelings I had going through me. It's a REAL rollercoaster, let me tell you.

On June 29, 1998 I wrote this entry:

I've never been a fighter and many times I took the easy way out of problems....when something threatened my happiness, I would give in and back away from an eventual fight to keep what was important.
But since last year, exactly on the 12th of August, everything changed.

My love for Curtis changed the way I looked at life, the way I handle problems and most of all what I know as the real meaning of life.
One thing this has all taught me, is that you either trust the one you love, or you don't. God works in mysterious ways and when we think that he is hurting us, he really is only trying to teach us a lesson.

WOW.....I don't even know how to respond to that. This was during an especially hard time in our relationship.


August 14, 1998 (two days after our wedding)

We have been married for two days now and they have been the BEST of my life, in these last few weeks I have felt so much love and happiness, more than I had ever anticipated.
I am where I have always wanted to be, married and totally in love with my husband.

And here is the journal that has kept all these beautiful and sometimes heart wrenching thoughts. I hope to one day share it with my kids so they may understand how mommy and daddy met, married and lived.

For a list of more participants to the "Treasure Tuesday", head on over to Faith's blog "Faithful Mommy". :)