Sunday, October 7, 2018

{ We lost Bella - Blogtober 2018 }


I wish I had the words right now to say how much my heart is hurting.  But I don't, and I don't want to even try to express it here because I believe that, when you love a pet as much as we love ours, you understand all too well the pain of losing them.

Twelve hours we watched her slowly fading away, there was nothing more that could be done for our Bella and we chose to let her go peacefully, at home, surrounded by her family.

It was excruciating at times and even though we knew it was coming, and we had prepared ourselves for it, the moment it happened, our hearts shattered.




Bella was our little girl, our second pug, the beautiful girl we rescued back in 2007.

Even though she belonged to the family, she was extremely close to Curt, just like Lola was to me.  It's just the way it goes, you may have a dozen pets, but there's always one that has a bond with a certain family member.

I remember when my Lola passed two years ago, the pain was like nothing I had felt before, and last night, at exactly 7:03pm, I had to watch my husband fall apart holding on to his dog. 

I knew the pain he was feeling, and I also knew that there was nothing I could do or say to ease it, and that sucks.

So here we are today, struggling to get through this, going between moments of being fine and moments of sobbing as we miss seeing her in her usual spots.


One thing has brought me peace.  This photo above.

I took it last year and if you follow my blog, you may even remember it from a previous post.

But that photo right there, is exactly what I picture Bella doing.  Finally running free, finally having full mobility of her legs, finally being reunited with her sister Lola.

It's a small thing, just a mere photo, but then it's in unexpected places that we often find the comfort we need.

We are going to miss her.  I still miss Lola, and for us, this marked the end of our Pug girls, they're both gone now.

Thankfully, we still have our boy Marley, and he has been the sweetest and most loving dog through all this ordeal. 

I know that we will be fine, but for the moment, our hearts are breaking and there's really nothing to do but ride out the grief process.

I thank you all for the prayers, and the thoughts for my family, it means the world!!!

18 comments:

  1. My condolences, Sandra...

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  2. I'm so sorry. They are part of the family and it hurts so much. Praying for all of you.

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  3. I’m so sorry for your loss, Sandra. I always enjoyed your mentions and photos of the pugs and now those about Marley.

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  4. Sending you a big hug. Pets can be such an integral part of our lives.
    God bless you dear,
    Laura of Harvest Lane Cottage

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  5. So sorry to hear of your family's loss of your beloved furbaby.

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  6. Y'all are in my prayers!!

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  7. So sorry Sandra! Hugs to you and Curt and your family through this difficult time.

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  8. I'm so sorry, Sandra :-(

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  9. I'm so so sorry, praying for you both!

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  10. So sorry! I know how you are feeling and I'm trying to keep from crying right now as I remember my pain of losing my boy. I hope you continue to find more and more comfort and will keep you in my prayers.

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  11. Love, hugs & prayers for your little family at this time.

    FlowerLady

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  12. I cried as I read your email today. The grief of losing a family pet is heart wrenching & painful for their unconditional love is like no other. May you find comfort in each other during this difficult time. Hugs & Blessings, Ruth

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  13. I'm so sorry for your loss. My deepest sympathies. So sad.

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  14. Sorry for your loss. Prayers for you and your family.

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  15. I am so sorry for you and your family's loss. Keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers.

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