{ We lost Bella - Blogtober 2018 }

I wish I had the words right now to say how much my heart is hurting.  But I don't, and I don't want to even try to express it here because I believe that, when you love a pet as much as we love ours, you understand all too well the pain of losing them.

Twelve hours we watched her slowly fading away, there was nothing more that could be done for our Bella and we chose to let her go peacefully, at home, surrounded by her family.

It was excruciating at times and even though we knew it was coming, and we had prepared ourselves for it, the moment it happened, our hearts shattered.




Bella was our little girl, our second pug, the beautiful girl we rescued back in 2007.

Even though she belonged to the family, she was extremely close to Curt, just like Lola was to me.  It's just the way it goes, you may have a dozen pets, but there's always one that has a bond with a certain family member.

I remember when my Lola passed two years ago, the pain was like nothing I had felt before, and last night, at exactly 7:03pm, I had to watch my husband fall apart holding on to his dog. 

I knew the pain he was feeling, and I also knew that there was nothing I could do or say to ease it, and that sucks.

So here we are today, struggling to get through this, going between moments of being fine and moments of sobbing as we miss seeing her in her usual spots.

One thing has brought me peace.  This photo above.

I took it last year and if you follow my blog, you may even remember it from a previous post.

But that photo right there, is exactly what I picture Bella doing.  Finally running free, finally having full mobility of her legs, finally being reunited with her sister Lola.

It's a small thing, just a mere photo, but then it's in unexpected places that we often find the comfort we need.

We are going to miss her.  I still miss Lola, and for us, this marked the end of our Pug girls, they're both gone now.

Thankfully, we still have our boy Marley, and he has been the sweetest and most loving dog through all this ordeal. 

I know that we will be fine, but for the moment, our hearts are breaking and there's really nothing to do but ride out the grief process.

I thank you all for the prayers, and the thoughts for my family, it means the world!!!